Friday, June 26, 2020

Not Much More to do it seems right now

For a little while I was feeling the urge to build the video game ---- but when I tried to get Unity to work on my Catalina Mac Mini, somehow the latest LTS version wouldn't install using the Unity Hub ---- so though maybe I could do it using a Linux virtual machine, I'm kind of leaning again towards saving my money for more important things than a video game.


So:::: on the video game business front, I don't see the point of making all the effort to waste my money. So no.



And then there's all those old psychological issues that I had for a very long time. Could I talk about that?



I thought about two of the topics I could discuss on that front, but then realized one of them is just a re-worded way of saying something I already said, while the other would dig up old issues that probably don't matter anymore.



The trend in my life over the past months seems to be headed towards this idea that I'm retiring now.



I may have released a new song ------ reactions to the song are mixed ------ some people enjoy it while other people don't really understand the entertainment value. There's a reason I charge 35 cents for that song ----- I actually don't want people to listen to it, but if they want to listen to it, then they have to give me 35 cents. Does that make sense?


Yes ---- it's weird ------ but I've actually figured out that I can actually stop people from viewing my materials just by putting on a price tag like that.


I have material that I want to publish, but I don't necessarily want everyone viewing it, so that's why it makes sense to have a price tag.


but yeah, my latest song pleases only maybe half the audience as I've learned so far.


But from the two sales it had, it had 7 views ----- which means it must've been pretty good for someone.



So::: maybe I could try making more music some time, but maybe then again I shouldn't. Maybe it doesn't matter.


Video games are a hassle and a waste of money ------ so I can ignore doing that for now.


I think I've worked though most of my psychological or church issues by now ------ so I don't totally see the point of digging that stuff up again or re-wording the same old things.



I guess I can talk about whatever is on my mind if I deem it worthy -------- but it sure is interesting to find out that if I have a topic I don't want people to hear but I do want to publish all I have to do is put on a price tag.


Either people don't buy much from me, or else someone like the government may have been garnishing my earnings for the past however long.



I can just enjoy living with my family and collecting my disability now it seems.



I just don't see what much more to do right now, besides write this blog post.


As for the upstairs guitar thing:::


I thought I could use having an upstairs guitar as a convenience as an excuse to get a new guitar ----


but no, that's not going to work.


I would like an upstairs guitar, but my mom is very opposed. And I understand that too. So I doubt I'll be buying anymore guitars. Unless my current guitar gets broken somehow, I guess.


Yup ---- I'm either on vacation or I'm finally retiring. Something like that. I just seem to be moving towards having nothing to do besides maybe helping my family with my Sister's projects.



I'm actually quite proud of my Sister for her efforts. I hope it works out for her.


I may not have liked her much when we were growing up, but most of the time I feel capable of following the church's teaching to forgive.


So, I'll just wait until I can game with my sister's brother-in-law again, and yeah, not much more to do or say.

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