So, this morning, without my Dad around, I tried explaining to my Mom how The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints' definition of forgiveness is different from the rest of the world's definition of forgiveness.
I tried explaining that most of the world believe forgiveness refers to the removal of punishment for an offence.
I tried explaining that the non-Standard church's definition of forgiveness refers to not feeling grudges or resentment ---- but that punishment will still happen anyway.
She then explained to me that when we repent, Jesus will forgive us, which means we will essentially mean we will not be punished for our sin.
I tried explaining to her that she's still operating under normal Christianity with those ideas ---- and then I gave two examples of when I did something wrong, repented, and still got punished by the church anyway ----- they were required to forgive me, but they still punished me at the same time.
She doesn't seem to understand what I'm trying to tell her.
Anyway ------- so all these years my Mom has been going to the Church and the Temple ---- she's been under a completely false impression of what the doctrine is.
She realized how screwed up I am about this stuff --------- but her impression of what the church's doctrine is doesn't quite match reality and she's been doing all this church stuff for YEARS (like, 34 or 35 years now) without the slightest idea of what the Church actually means with what they say.
The Church's definition of Forgiveness is different than the way that most of the world defines Forgiveness.
My Mom still hasn't come to this realization, after 34 years, and it's not enough for me to just tell her and give examples.
She's still operating in a Christian Mindset ------ she still hasn't figured out exactly what her own Church was trying to teach.
The reason it was important to mention that my Dad was not around as I tried to tell her this stuff is this:::::
My Dad can't seem to handle ANY TALKING AT ALL.
As soon as I start trying to explain the differences between Christianity and The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, 99% of the time he will automatically try to shut down my discussion or go off in a different direction with what I was just saying.
I'm just saying it's very difficult to say anything at all with my Dad around.
And though my Dad wasn't around, the meaning of what I said still didn't get through to my Mom.
She's had the wrong idea for pretty much as long as I've been alive.
There are definitely confusions about the differences between Christianity and what the Church teach and believe ------ and I had to put up with that confusion all m life.