So::: seeing as how my last few posts are about me getting back to work on my projects,
today I was discussing a bunch of the same old stuff with my brother again ---- and I remembered something.
When I was on my way to grow up from priests' quorum in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints ------- our Sunday School taught us something very important.
The church taught that you can have your blessings ONLY IF you follow all the church rules and are perfectly obedient to them.
that means if you don't follow the rules --- then you aren't allowed to have your blessings.
What does that mean for me and my brother?
That means because he and I drink coffee and masturbate that we are NOT ALLOWED TO HAVE JOBS OR WORK FOR A LIVING.
I know, it's the strangest thing ---- but if you look at my patriarchal blessing, providing for my family was one of the blessings I was supposed to have ----- so because I don't follow church rules perfect, I am actually not allowed to work for a living.
There are, of course, reasons why we don't believe this or the rest of the church anymore (so we don't take it seriously).
Some reasons are::::
1) If my eyewitness of Jesus Christ is correct, Jesus Christ doesn't even follow Church rules.
2) The church always required forgiveness but never dished out forgiveness ---- we don't trust them because of this.
3) When I first "sinned" --- I wasn't choosing to sin. I am absolutely serious when I say I was molested by a ghost. I wasn't even rubbing myself. And yet it happened anyway. I'm technically not responsible for the action, although the church didn't really care.
The church couldn't let a ghost be blamed for what happened ---- but it also wasn't really my own choice to do that ------ so this is a gray area where I know I'm not really guilty but the church doesn't want the actual explanation.
yeah. Anyway --------
I just thought I'd post about my old archaic knowledge of church rules from when I was young because of how it applies to me now:::
I'm planning on getting back to work,
but according to the church, I'm not allowed to work because I'm not perfect enough.
When you think about it, the whole thing is just crazy.
Why? Because they say to be forgiven it takes a lot of hard work.
But if you aren't allowed to work because of your unworthiness, then how are you supposed to do that hard work?
No idea --- it's just crazy.
I apologize if this seems like I'm saying more than I should ---- but this is honestly the things I know about the church I grew up in.
Lots of people have lots of complaints about the church, so it's not really any different for me to mention this.
So:::: maybe the reason I'm considered disabled, besides a belief in miracles, is because the Church doesn't allow me to work because I don't perfectly follow their rules.