I did a search for ebook downloads of my books.
I found one.
The first edition of The Book of Finch.
I DO actually allow people to download the first edition of this book ---- BUT I ask that people buy the 3.4 edition paperback of The Book of Finch in concert with downloading the first edition. That is what I allow. The first edition free download, in my mind, is only ok if you also buy the 3.4 edition paperback.
Unfortunately, as is pretty regular with humanity ------ nobody cares about the limitations I say I have on downloads. Nobody cares about paying the author it seems like.
The download page I found said there were 1214 ratings of my book.
That's just ratings. That's probably just a fraction of all the downloads.
Though it may feel good to get an average of 4.3 out of 5 stars rating on the most poorly written edition ------
Well, it just seems to be impossible for me to actually sell things.
Maybe I do sell --- never find out about it ---- and then maybe the government takes it. Who knows - maybe.
It would be nice to see actual sales reports though --- it would be nice if people were honest with me.
Plus --- the royalties at this point would be lucrative enough to probably be worth a small fortune, at least.
But ---- I get nothing from it ------ nearly everyone has refused to pay me for anything I've ever done.
I guess I should just count my blessings that I was able to pay my debt ---- that my disability payment increased substantially over the years and that I can live pretty happy as it is even without royalties.
If I wanted to get my own place to live though, I would probably need those royalties.
I guess, in the end, I can feel I accomplished SOMETHING by having so much distribution with such high ratings.
I suppose there's a silver lining that many people seem to have accepted my work. That in itself is something I'm sure.