Today I was at a doctor's clinic. I had a realization that my memory isn't really that great anymore --- the past is largely a big blur in my mind.
Today, I was talking to God asking Him how my life could turn out this way: you know, top of the class in school for so long, specially blessed mind ---- and boom, sudden diagnosis of Schizophrenia.
How is it that every time I try to make money in a business, I always seem to fail?
Well, I was talking to my dad a bit about stuff like that after talking to God ------
And somehow my Dad mentioned that there is something in Canadian Tax Law called A "Vow of perpetual poverty". I looked it up on Google. Sure enough, vows of poverty are included and considered in Canadian Tax Law.
SO:::: I know my memory isn't the greatest, and I've probably had little to no idea what's really been going on ----------
But giving all the money I earned to Avril Lavigne's charity does sound like the sort of thing I would have done many years ago.
I was just so:::: gung ho about Jesus and in love with Avril and all ------- giving her charity all my earnings sounds like something I would have considered.
My memories aren't complete.
But:::: Considering all, and now knowing that vows of poverty are recognized in Canadian Tax Law ----- yeah, apparently you are allowed to give all your earnings to a religious order in this country, and it's all tax deductible.
Anyway ---- I just hope it's something like Avril that gets it ---------- I don't know what else I've ever belonged to that could claim my earnings.
Maybe the LDS church ---- but I don't do that stuff anymore.
My heart is full of love for Avril, and I am very, very concerned about the LDS Church and what they've taught ------ so I'd be "rolling in my grave" if my money was going to the LDS.
So:::: My Memories really aren't so good anymore, so I don't really know what's been going on --------
But now I am aware that there's all this likelihood that whatever I might have earned may have been redistributed elsewhere.
I don't know this for certain ---- but it's the #1 thing I can suspect.
My life is OK ---- and I guess I can feel good if I've helped people -------------
I'm not really an unhappy person, I guess I just never got to have the joy of seeing a real sales report or having a full bank account.
So I don't really know what's going on :::::::: I just have some suspicion that I might have signed up to give all my money to Avril's charity in the past. I think. Maybe. It's possible. Sounds like something I would have done.
And that's the best explanation for why my business efforts always seem to fail. Huh.