If anyone has been wondering how I've been doing:: I've been really quite enjoying my life, mostly, lately.
I rearranged my electronic devices in my home so now I get to play with my PS4 more.
I'm just having a pretty good time now, taking it mostly easy and enjoying life.
The worst thing I have going on right now is just this problem in my brain where I just remember too many things.
When my Dad was in computer development back a long time ago, he had a phrase called "Garbage In Garbage Out".
It's the same with my brain:::: growing up I was exposed to all kinds of garbage behavior, and now, with all those memories, often all my brain can do is repeat the garbage.
I'm living in a much happier and healthier environment now --- but the memories of my past have an effect on my mind and the best way I can explain it is maybe to call myself "neurotic".
My mind is mildly anxious or obsessive or something like that about my past. Garbage in, garbage out, I just have too many shitty memories.
I guess the last part of this post will try to explain my philosophy:
In 99% of cases, saying rude things about people or calling people names is WRONG. It just is NOT RIGHT.
If the name calling is not true, then you really shouldn't be saying it.
Even if the name calling is true, there is still quite a high possibility that you still shouldn't be saying crude or rude things about a person.
Be nice to people. Treat people with respect. That'll go a long way to make the world a better place.
Part of my problem these days is I just have too many memories of people engaging in disrespectful behavior. It didn't matter how I was a top student in school, my sister would continue to insult my intelligence, for example. That kind of behavior just isn't right.
Other than bad memories and philosophizing something I've already known for a long time anyway (to be respectful), I am actually quite enjoying my life now, so for that, I am thankful.
The sad truth is I feel much more sheltered as an adult than I was as a kid. Growing up is hard.
So, that's how I'm doing.