Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Reality is Awesome or Even Unreal

I said I wanted to talk about good things on my blog, and I feel driven to write some more on my blog.

Fact is if I explained some of the good things I see in my life, from experience I know people will think that it sounds too good to be true and there will just be another big argument where, essentially, people lack faith in my truth.

I think it's enough for me to say this::::

Either GOD IS VERY REAL, and he extends his hands in our (or my) life continuously,


Reality doesn't seem very realistic sometimes, reality seems to be very contrived to me.

This can be in very good, or very bad ways.

In some ways, the world is unbelievably evil and wrong, I don't even understand how or why people make some of the decisions they do ----

But in other ways, the world is an absolutely magical place, where, really, you should expect the unexpected, for lack of better words.

Maybe I see the world like this simply because I've been a true believer in God for a long time, and the LDS Patriarch gave me a blessing where I would witness and perform miracles.

Maybe for a lot of people who don't believe in miracles or God, reality seems less awesome than what I experience,

but it's enough for me to say that for me, with my God and miracles, the reality is so awesome sometimes I'm not even going to fully talk about it here because I realize from experience that people will figure it's too good to be true.

But yeah:::: my reality can be very good and very awesome in sometimes, and at other times it doesn't even make sense how wrong it becomes.

Maybe this has something to do with how I was suspected bipolar, diagnosed with schizophrenia, and in the end, I think I'm just schizoaffective, which is essentially a combination of bipolar with schizophrenia.

I'm not going to argue with the doctors about that now ---- if what I experience is too good to be true or too awful to make sense, then maybe I am well deserving of my disability benefits.

On a side note, I was thinking this morning about Gerald Melchin, the LDS Mormon patriarch who gave me my LDS patriarchal blessing.

Amazingly, I have no complaints about him.

There has been so much gone wrong with the church, but if anyone was a good example of how good the church could be:: he exemplified it.

Here's a little scripture:

D&C 64:15-16

15 Behold, I, the Lord, was angry with him who was my servant Ezra Booth, and also my servant Isaac Morley, for they kept not the law, neither the commandment;
16 They sought evil in their hearts, and I, the Lord, withheld my Spirit. They condemned for evil that thing in which there was no evil; nevertheless I have forgiven my servant Isaac Morley.

In this scripture, we can clearly see that the church had some pretty big problems right since the beginning with Joseph Smith ----- Two church guys condemning for evil things that weren't even evil.

In some ways, the church can be good.

But obviously, just from this scripture alone, we can see there have been serious problems from the beginning.

It has been said that Mormonism produces some of the nicest and best people ever, but it also produces from of the worst and meanest people ever.

Just looking at the scriptures myself, it's hard to believe the church was fully true ----- I'm just saying that sometimes, with people like Gerald Melchin, the patriarch, the church does seem very awesome and seems so believable --- because, in my experience with the patriarch, there was a real magic,

and this magic might be why I live in a reality that some would say is too good to be true.

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