In my last post, I said my cell phone bill was days late and still hadn't come.
As of yesterday (Saturday), my bill balance was still at $0.00.
When I tried to visit the provider's website on my mac this morning -- my mac just wouldn't connect to that one website.
Later, I was using my iPad and decided to try again --- as I visited the provider's website, which connected, for some strange reason my iPad was suddenly disconnected from my home network, and wouldn't reconnect using DHCP or automatic settings.
So, I manually configured it, and it connected again.
Then I was able to log in to the provider's site and take a look: I had a new balance on my account.
I paid that balance with my credit card.
So yeah::: whatever is going on, it's very odd ---- Days late billing, connection problems and loss of local connection, and the bill came up on a Sunday.
Yesterday I mostly felt depressed. I had a good moment or two --- but I was psychologically in a low place yesterday.
Usually, on that day I would start feeling a mania, as my injection is due this Wednesday --- but this time I was feeling depressed.
The biggest environmental factor leading up to the depression may have been the night before: Friday night.
Here's a short version of what happened Friday night:
I still have unending psychological problems with thoughts about experiencing and doctrines of the church popping up in my mind.
I try to talk about what's on my mind so I can try to feel better psychologically.
My brother, who is getting better, is a good listener.
My mom is a good listener.
But most of the time I have to encounter my Dad as I say things --- I might be talking to my Mom or Brother, but invariably my Dad will get himself involved anyway.
And my Dad has ADD.
Let's just say, I never really feel like I'm being listened to, and rather than helping me feel better as I try to unload my psychological burden verbally, I just end up getting frustrated because with my Dad it becomes very difficult to even get my point across.
I've been insane for quite some time --- but you have to realize that one big major factor in my insanity is just having problems in life, trying to talk about or discuss those problems ---- and only finding serious and severe frustration every time as my ADD Dad gets involved in the discussion ------ that's how I went insane in a nutshell. it's been the same problem ever since the beginning.
If the problems alone aren't enough to drive me insane, I sure was insane by the time I had to discuss the problems with my father.
ADD really doesn't help the situation.
So, on Friday night I got frustrated, Saturday I was mostly depressed, and today some weird stuff as I finally got billed for my cell phone.
So yeah, there.
On a side note, I've stopped feeling afraid of my blog, mostly.
But with Youtube telling me to de-google, I do still have some paranoia about that subject.
Other than that, I'm fine, I'm doing well.
It's too bad not every story can be so positive and happy.