I was just looking at some of my memories from The Book of Finch.
People seem to misunderstand my mental illness in the community.
I think they get my identity confused with my brother's identity.
You see, generally speaking when I end up in the psychiatric hospital --- I end up in there for maybe 10 days, 20 days, a month.
But when my brother has problems, and I'm not even going to describe these problems except to say they are serious --- he will be in the hospital for month after month after month ------- and he never really makes a full recovery, even on drugs.
While I ----- I haven't been in the hospital for like 6 or 7 years and the doctors are saying the drug I am on (the injectable version of Paliperidone) works great for me.
You see, there are people who will say that I am the one who is completely insane ---- which means they do not know what "completely insane" is.
I am actually a good and normal person who has historically been forced to live in environments where I am surrounded by people who aren't thinking very well or aren't making very good choices ------ and that's a big factor in what can drive me mad.
I'm basically ill because I'm around other people who are ill all the time or used to be around other people like that all the time.
People have said that I'm completely insane ------ but if that's what they say then they really don't know what "completely insane" is.
I'm insane because I'm always around insane people. Or I used to be.
Someone who is closer to "completely insane" would be my brother --- so don't get us confused with each other.
I spend 10-days to a month in psychiatric hospitals, and now I'm doing well.
My brother will be in there for months and never makes a full recovery.
Stop calling me "completely insane" please.