Friday, July 28, 2017

Thank You Everyone

It's 22:27 on July 28th ---- these are my last few hours of being a 32 year old --- so I guess I might as well thank everyone for the massive goodness they have done to me throughout my life to, perhaps, "keep me afloat" through or after severe difficulties.

I look at my sales and my blog ---- and though I have some interactions with some people, I'm not really hugely popular ----- and though I don't make much more than a disability benefit ---- I think I can tell that there is a greater community out there that tries to show me some love, even if it doesn't mean monetary reward.

Thanks, everyone ---- it's been great to receive "certain honors" that help keep me happy despite very poor circumstances in my life.


Other than "thanks" for all the kindness and emotional support ---- what else can I talk about?


I remember sometime last year I think it was my Chromebook disappeared, only to show up much later in a place where it wasn't supposed to be.

Now I'm missing two other items::::::

a stone of Blue Calcite, which I bought in Banff at their Rocks/Mineral store -----

and the Zippo and carrying case for it that I had since I was young has also disappeared.




I know --- Zippos are for smokers, and I don't smoke --- so why would I have one?

As children, my brother had a way of looking up to Indiana Jones as a role model --- and Jones had a zippo, so he needed a zippo too.

And, as young boys are, I was also compelled by young-boy-psychology to follow in my brother's lead and get a zippo too.

My Zippo was made of plain brass but had my given name engraved on it.

An interesting thing to note::: Finch, with their album "What it is to Burn", released a Zippo-like lighter with the special edition of their album --- I still have that today I think, but I never use it.





So yeah ------ my life has been so full of problems, I can only feel great gratitude for all the people who have attempted to make my existence more bearable. Thanks, everyone.





And like my Chromebook once disappeared ---- I am now missing my Blue Calcite stone and my Zippo lighter ----- so who knows.

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

New projest indefinitely stalls?

I've been thinking

What's the point of spending all that money on a new computer for "development" when such a weak computer would probably make a very weak development machine --- especially when history tells me I can't expect people to pay me for my work, and it will be a lot of work without reward?

What's the likelihood that I should rather use that money on something that is more likely to be more rewarding, yet takes less effort on my part?

Yes ---- it's messed up when a guy can be paid more for doing dick-all rather than for actual work. But hey, if that's the way it is, that's the way it is.

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A few days ago I received a birthday wish from an LDS Bishop in an email. I responded with a bunch of stuff, including questioning why the LDS church doesn't have the sealed portion of The Book of Mormon ------ because if the LDS church was actually faithful to their beliefs, and if the church was true, then they would have the greater part or the greater 2/3rds of The Book of Mormon ---- which they don't, which means the LDS church is likely just not doing something right.

The next day I then proceeded to start reading the online book of The Sealed Portion by Christopher Nemelka, just to learn more about what he says. The first chapter of Lehi (which I already read) I found to be quite explanatory, although I don't necessarily still believe in Mormonism in any form.

Well, from my reading yesterday, I actually learned that BLAINE BANANATREE and THE BANANATREE SERIES OF VIDEO GAMES is actually a religious video game/ series.

I had no idea I was building a game based on any religion when I made those games ----- but if the Sealed Portion is accepted as an actual religious text, then technically I may have been inspired to write a religious video game without even knowing it. It's weird.

There are numerous ways my Bananatree games can be looked at ---- but the potential Mormon religion aspect of them was a big surprise to me. I had no idea. A big coincidence. I wouldn't have expected.

So now the first chapter of Lehi sounded extremely explanatory to me, and without me knowing my game series may have been inspired and relatable to a potential book of scripture. OMG.





But in all seriousness ---- according to Mormonism, if the LDS Church doesn't have the sealed 2/3rd greater part of the book of Mormon, that means they were not faithful to their beliefs ----- which explains why I experienced such difficulty with those people

Like, the non-faithful kind of difficulties I experienced were a ballerina girl who was a total Mormon who couldn't get kicked out who didn't believe in invisible ghosts and angels, such were just hallucinations to her, as well as the church telling me I'd work miracles and then forcing me on drugs for believing in miracles.


Yes ---- something is wrong with that whole shebang, and that explains why the LDS church doesn't have The Sealed Portion - it was withheld from them because of their lack of faith in their own stuff ---- most of them like or liked to get up to tell everyone how they knew the whole shebang was so completely true ----- but it looks like the actual truth was these people weren't even faithful to these things.  If they were faithful, but still no sealed portion ----- then there's a problem with the whole belief system right from the get-go.

Tuesday, July 25, 2017

What I have decided (new project)

I thought for a while about my options for my new game idea.

One big factor in trying to garner public funds for my project is stress. I'm a "modestly" capable game dev who is looking to build his biggest project yet, and I fear big disappointments if I make use of public funds to build such a project. Stressing.

Plus::: The indication from my MLA's office was that they would expect me to use discount hardware for my new project --- and not necessarily mac hardware either ----

Therefore, to avoid the stress, build a project that I like the idea of, and basically use my own choice of hardware:::::

I am opting just to buy the cheapest Mac mini I can, which will probably be pretty crappy for development, but I will either use this mac mini as my legacy machine for my older smaller games, or I could try using it for my new project,

And that way I might have a way of building something without having to share old and new software on the same computer.

Of course, if this new Mac Mini turns out to be absolute shite with the development of games (which it probably will be) ---- then I do have another use I've been thinking about for a while now that I could put it towards.


So::::: I basically come out a winner, except financially, where my funds are limited and I've got big expenses and I can't expect to get paid.



So, to me, this game is worth building.

But not everyone may agree --- that's stressful.

To avoid stress and basically get the same level of hardware I would've gotten from the government anyway (if I got anything) ---- I'll just buy a really low-end computer to try to help and hope the dental fees aren't too much too fast.





So:::: if you consider yourself my enemy, now is the time to buy all the cheap mac hardware you can so there's nothing left for me to purchase. You have a few days to do this. Once my funding is available, I could easily buy a cheap mac mini ---- and your plans to stop me will be foiled.

Good day everyone.

Monday, July 24, 2017

My MLA's office replied

A little while ago I received a reply from my MLA's office.

There are no plans to increase the monthly aish living benefit.

But they had two suggestions for me::::

One was a business that sells lightly-worn laptops for cheaper. I went the website and found very little information.

The other was the Alberta Foundation for the Arts.

I could make an application for my project, and if approved, I could receive some funding money.





I'm sitting here ---- that sounds like work, but it also sounds like fun.


Is my idea really worth it?


My idea is basically kind of like a self-employment kind of thing to keep myself busy. It is also a unique idea I have never seen before in the way that I'm thinking of it.


I start feeling a little bit scared anxious or nervous at this point.


I would have something to do. The more funding I get, the better I'd be able to do the job (like seriously:::: with funding I could purchase usage of actual music rather than creative commons).



It's exciting that this might be an opportunity ------ I just wonder if my idea for a video game is really worth it. It's unique as far as I know ---- and it would be quite a bit of work I think.



How likely are people to actually "go" for such a project though?



Another thing::: If I get funded by the government, then I might end up going on Cortex again anyway, as I wouldn't need to actually get paid as much with government funding.


Of course --- it would be wise to use the latest unity I can (2017.1) ---- and that will mean expenses for me.


yeah.  Anyway.  Just things to think about and feelings about it to drive me nuts.


At least my MLA's office was happy to hear from me.

Not that mentally ill

I was just looking at some of my memories from The Book of Finch.

People seem to misunderstand my mental illness in the community.

I think they get my identity confused with my brother's identity.

You see, generally speaking when I end up in the psychiatric hospital --- I end up in there for maybe 10 days, 20 days, a month.



But when my brother has problems, and I'm not even going to describe these problems except to say they are serious --- he will be in the hospital for month after month after month ------- and he never really makes a full recovery, even on drugs.


While I ----- I haven't been in the hospital for like 6 or 7 years and the doctors are saying the drug I am on (the injectable version of Paliperidone) works great for me.



You see, there are people who will say that I am the one who is completely insane ---- which means they do not know what "completely insane" is.


I am actually a good and normal person who has historically been forced to live in environments where I am surrounded by people who aren't thinking very well or aren't making very good choices ------ and that's a big factor in what can drive me mad.


I'm basically ill because I'm around other people who are ill all the time or used to be around other people like that all the time.



People have said that I'm completely insane ------ but if that's what they say then they really don't know what "completely insane" is.


I'm insane because I'm always around insane people. Or I used to be.



Someone who is closer to "completely insane" would be my brother --- so don't get us confused with each other.



I spend 10-days to a month in psychiatric hospitals, and now I'm doing well.



My brother will be in there for months and never makes a full recovery.



Stop calling me "completely insane" please.

Saturday, July 22, 2017

Supporting Benefits

Within the past 24 hours, I wrote an email to my Member of the Legislative Assembly requesting that the Assured Income for the Severely Handicapped benefit be increased in value, to minimum wage levels.

I said I did a whole bunch of work, I paid lots of money to publish and advertise this work, and yet people just wouldn't pay me for my work -- not even the smallest price.

I'm in a situation where to pay for everything, including more work, I basically need more money.

My main source of income pays less than minimum wage, so it only seemed reasonable to increase it to minimum wage levels - as the Alberta Liberal Party has also indicated.



It's great that someone who claims to work in the entertainment industry, who speaks Japanese, would reach out to me and offer me so much money (millions) in order to "own" me - but I don't actually see any money and it is very difficult to read all the thousands of Japanese messages --- copy and paste into google translate, for such short messages, which there are thousands of, would definitely be a huge effort.


I don't mind paying tax. If I made millions, I would easily pay my taxes ---- I believe in the public good.

So, I'm basically in a situation where I would like to have more money ---- if I make millions I accept paying taxes, while if I'm still on benefits I do need more benefits to keep going.



You might ask "Why don't you just sue whoever infringed on  your copyright?"


First off:::: I don't really know WHO did that. I know someone did, but no idea who.

Secondly:::: Since I was very young I was trained to just forgive everything. Just to let everyone off the hook.


I may not sue anyone, but I do need more money to continue, and also to live well ---- so that's why I request an increase in my benefits - something one major (ok, maybe they are minor in Alberta) political party has already argued for.




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It is absolutely awesome that compensation would be offered for all the inspiration others might take from me. Absolutely awesome. I just don't understand Japanese very well, and I don't actually see the money either.  It would also help to note, maybe, that my bank doesn't have a SWIFT code and doesn't do wire transfers.



So who knows what's going on ---- but for me to continue, I should have more money, whether it be compensation from the rich or increased benefits from the government.


I was taught to forgive everything.  That means I'm not much at enforcing rules --- I am based in love and plainly just respecting my fellow man, and I hope to receive respect in return.


and I could go into a detailed conversation about Christan/Mormon philosophy on that thought, but I won't.

Friday, July 21, 2017

Projects

I was thinking about how much I would like to get to work on my new idea.

It's unknown how well this project will be received --- because again, it's not something I've seen before --- it is a more or less sort of an original idea for a game.

But history tells me that people don't pay me. And if people don't pay me, then there is NO point in risking going back into debt when I may not be able to recuperate the principal + interest from sales.

That's what Kickstarter seems to be about::: Gauging how interested an audience is in consuming a product, and if they are then letting them invest in it.

I've already been in pretty deep debt for projects that didn't pay. I am NOT doing THAT again.

So::: really, in order to continue with my next project, I do need money.

I do have money. But that's earmarked for dental work. I need more money. Preferably donations or payment for previous work.

Just paying for Unity 2017.1 Plus alone would be like $40CAD a month, which I am not willing to shell out right now especially when I'd still want to get other things as well. Doesn't work on my current budget, with my current capital.

Of course, before anyone donated to me --- You might think they'd want some idea what they are donating to.

Well, again, history indicates that OTHER PEOPLE SEEM TO LIKE MY IDEAS TO SOME LEVEL ------ and therefore if I don't want to give away ideas, then I need to keep my ideas secret.

Remember Sk8er Boi? Like my actual life story.

Remember The Number  23? A distortion of my life story.

And in the past few weeks, I have discovered 4 recent or upcoming AAA film products that I can feel I can relate to either from my life or from my work.

Of course, these aren't exactly copies, and they are only elementally relatable or comparable ---- but it does appear that my ideas might've influenced some people.

And no, I'm not going to list these projects here. If you know my work, you might see a trailer for something which is similar.



I can only hope that some day I'll get paid.



Not only just to afford equipment for my next projects ---- but just to live my life. I live my life sort of "well enough" as it is ------ but my Mom will eventually retire from her job, and then it might be wise to have some more income from my work.




But yeah ---- if People aren't going to invest/donate to my next project, then the project either won't get built or will take a lot longer to build.



Who knows::: maybe the game market is so saturated no one will care --- maybe people think I'm evil or something. Maybe people are in too much debt (in Canada this is likely true).




Well, if most people are not interested or in too much debt ----- You'd think these people who might take some inspiration from my work would take steps to compensate me somehow -------

and It's possible they HAVE taken steps to compensate me.

But I don't actually see actual money anywhere, and it's really hard to read all the Japanese emails (the thousands of emails) that are hard to translate and too numerous to want to try ------  even though these emails MIGHT indicate that someone was or is willing to pay me.


I don't know.



It must be the biggest joke ever for a Japanese writer to offer me millions of dollars worth of currency ---- only to keep sending me more and more short messages in Japanese that I have no easy way of interpreting.

Copying and pasting all those messages into Google Translate takes a lot of time and effort.

It's millions of dollars being offered, but it seems like a joke when it takes so much effort just to read each short message. And there are thousands of these messages piling up.

Anyway --- it was an offer of millions, who knows how much that still stands, but the emails still come ------ and I'm not even sure if it was Sony or Disney.



Yeah --- I don't know. Maybe it's all a joke ------ except offering me millions, and then me seeing all these movies I relate back to myself and my own work ------- something might be going on.



And I'm still overburdened by the idea of paying for $40/month Unity Plus.





On a side note::: I just remembered a while back this Japanese person tried to set up a Snapchat account with my email address.  That's a sign that someone is truly trying to interact with me, but I didn't know the password to the account which was set up in Japanse with my address, so I didn't go for that ----- I made my own snap chat account.


I don't know. I have no one to snap chat with.


But yeah ---- someone out there is truly "interested" in me, sends me lots of emails I have difficulty reading, offers lots of money, I see movies I compare to ---- and who knows.


Maybe my next game should be for PS4 ---- but I need more documentation and resources definitely to do something like that. It's hard when I get thousands of short messages I can't really read --- i have like, little to no idea what's going on.

It just seems kind of funny.

Thursday, July 20, 2017

Lots of News

Unfortunately, just a day after posting how I would like to receive Bitcoin donations in order to help begin work on my next video game --- boom, I found news that says sometime around July 31st there will or may be a Bitcoin network disruption where it will be unwise to try to spend or receive bitcoins.

This is highly unfortunate. The network held such promise.

But yeah, if it's true that the world or people really are as poor as I hear --- then maybe I can't expect to receive much funding. Debt is rampant.



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But last night after watching a Netflix show about how rampant debt is ----- I thought I received a telepathy involving two of my old friends from school.

They were shocked by something. I couldn't quite figure out what they were shocked by, I made two guesses in the email I wrote about the contact.

Now I wonder if they were shocked by the news of Chester Bennington's death.

How sad is that??? It was shocking to me too.

Years ago when I was in Avril's fan club, she had a form for us fans to fill out where she asked questions like "What are your favorite bands?" and "Who is your favorite singer?"

I did actually have Chester Bennington listed as my favorite singer ---- on Avril's fan club.

Maybe Avril didn't like that ------ but back then at that time, I was very impressed by his music.

It's so sad to see him go.



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And in more mentalism news:::: I just happened to see some daytime tv today where they presented a mentalist named "Bobby Motta".

I am very impressed.


I would say he is actually basically more skilled at the trade than I've been, more or less.


And now I might have some realization about some of the hallucinations I felt when I was younger:::: of course doctors said it was schizophrenia ------- but it may actually have been me feeling what someone else actually feels. On their skin.

I thought it was ghosts ---- but what if it was mentalism? Who knows.




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Well, this blog post has information related to other media outlets --- which I think is not something that is very necessary to post on blogger ----- but all the stories I relate to myself in my own life, in actual truthful ways, so I wonder if that makes it OK.



I think blogger has a rule against copying other sites and reposting the same old news ---- but in this post, I really am just relating some news back to myself.


Like, it would actually be irresponsible for me to ask for donations on Bitcoin, find out there could be a disruption, and then not tell anyone who might potentially donate to me. It kind of has to be said here.

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Why I Need Donations (Bitcoin)

There are numerous people from many countries who visit my blog. I should have enough publicity to attract attention to my projects.

But, the projects I've worked on so far JUST HAVEN'T PAID.

Do people just dislike me? I don't know --- the guy at Linux Mint said he was "honored" to receive my donation to the Linux Mint Project, and recently Plan Canada told me my name has power --- like that meant something. I'm not totally certain that people just don't like me. But I don't get paid.

I have a project idea I'm wanting to begin work on. I know that chances of this project achieving popularity or monetary success on Forge TV Cortex are very low. I loved OUYA, I think Forge TV is actually a pretty good platform ---- but other people didn't buy Forges, even didn't like Forges.

So it's time to move on.

For my next video game project, I think I would like to do it on APPLE TV.

To get this right, however, I am going to need money. I need new equipment. I need an apple tv for starters. I'll need controllers. Heck, I might need a new mac --- the old one is for Unity 4 Android TV development and the drives are getting pretty full. Heck, I might as well, if I can, go for Unity 5 Pro this time.

All that would've been possible if I had only been paid for my 10+ projects of previous work. But I didn't get paid.

So, you could say that I could start a Kickstarter ---- but I don't like that idea. I'd have to tell you about my super-secret project before it's even fully started, and then it wouldn't be super-secret.

Why keep it a super-secret?  Because I know through my life plenty of times people do like taking my ideas. Some times I give my ideas away. But for something like this, something I want to do myself ---- I don't need anyone knowing what I'm going to be doing. Kickstarter doesn't allow that.

So::: What can you do?

I have a donation bitcoin address you can donate bitcoins to. If enough Bitcoins are acquired, I am certain I could use those bitcoins to buy the equipment I need.

Look at my previous projects. Sure, I've made many mistakes along the way --- but I eventually remedied all or most of the problems. If you have any liking for any of my previous work, just know that this new project I'm thinking of is an even bigger idea --- it will take a lot of work, and I'd like to get it right. I am more experienced now after all the 8 Cortex games I've published. I just need capital to set up a new work area.

Here is a list of things I would think I would want to buy for my new project:

1) A New Apple TV. My current Apple TV doesn't play games, it's the old kind.
2) A New Mac, hopefully with at least 256gb of flash drive --- it could be a Mac mini or a mac pro depending on funding.
3) Whatever it costs to be an Apple Dev. I heard it's not free.
4) Unity 5 Pro. That would be nice, although not absolutely necessary.
5) Unity Assets. I'm not an artist, it actually helps to be able to hire someone else's help.
6) Controllers and cables. Let's not forget these are essential.
7) I might even need to purchase documentation. Maybe.
8) Maybe a new TV. My old TV is my monitor for my Forge Development station.


There you go::: that's a list of stuff I need Donations for. Kickstarter would make me expose top-secret information and wouldn't necessarily succeed if the goal is not met ---- plus it's more work for me, and makes me feel scared.

Anonymous Bitcoin Donations are a good way for you to provide funds for me without me having to deal with Kickstarter. It's also cheaper. If you want to be anonymous, you can be. If you want to talk to me, send me an email.

The Bitcoin Donations just build up over time, while a Kickstarter could fail and nothing happens.


Basically::: If you want to help me in my next project, I'm happy to receive your bitcoins.


If people don't pay me because they don't like me, then I really have to wonder why the Linux Mint guy was honored at my donation and why Plan Canada thinks I'm so powerful.


Yeah, I have paranoid thoughts that maybe I don't get paid because I don't have Charisma ----


But at least some respectable individuals DO seem to like me.


So, to help me with my next project, please just send me bitcoins. Work will completely stall without new funding ---- I have other things to pay for in my life, and though I can pay for those things with the money I have, I won't be able to afford a new project with how things are at this moment by myself.


Thank You.


Donate Your Bitcoins to:
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New Game Maybe?

Yesterday I got an email from Plan Canada that said my name has power. My blog gets enough international attention that maybe it does have some power. But, alas, to some I may be a villain, while to others I might be a sort of hero. You can't please everyone.

Anyway --- yeah, I gave my moral support to a Plan Canada campaign to end discrimination against women in developing countries so these women can get the medical help they need during childbirth. Lots of women die from childbirth complications in developing countries, so Plan just wanted my moral support in ending discrimination and finding treatment for all those women. I supported.

Of course, though I have some heart and essentially would like to see a better world where more women don't die at childbirth ------ I still might possess a stain from back earlier in my life where I was basically treated like I was a threat to the girl I loved, and as such I myself will never get married. You see, I was treated like a threat to the girl I loved, that concept got passed into The Number 23 movie----- and yeah, it kind of makes me seem so bad that I will never reproduce.

Am I actually that bad? I don't think so -------- I haven't hurt a female since my childhood roughhousing with my sister when we were kids -------- but still, ah maybe I'm just being foolish --- but I think I enjoy just living with my parents now. And I don't have enough income to actually have my own family.  But yeah ---- I support some women's rights despite previously being more or less accused of being a threat to the girl I loved.

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And I have an idea for a new video game. If I build this and complete it, it'll probably be the biggest project for a video game I have EVER worked on. This project will involve me paying for someone else's help with artwork (unless you want to see my really-shitty art), so I'm going to need to get some funding together in order to afford this project. No, I don't need a Kickstarter, I'm just waiting to be able to get access to some savings I have right now.

I can only hope that this project is within my abilities. But I do feel enough drive making me want to go for it.

Thursday, July 13, 2017

For Sale on this website ---- 1ST ISSUE COMIC ---- SPIDERMAN

To buy this item, write to me your name and mailing address at <krisa@icloud.com>, and I'll respond with an email containing the bitcoin address you can send your payment to. Then, upon receipt of payment, I will, as fast as I can, get the item shipped to you ---- and this item gets special faster shipping treatment because of the expense and awesomeness of it.

ITEM 11
FIRST ISSUE COMIC --- MARVEL COMICS DIGEST STARRING... THE AMAZING SPIDERMAN (ARCHIE DIGEST SPECIAL)
Well, this is the first issue of a big name comic hero, so I'll be selling this for pricey. It's in pretty good condition, basically new --- unread as far as I know although my Dad and I did quickly flip through a few pages to see some of the drawings. In color. Good condition.
SHIPPING---- Paying the full price of this product, I'll ship it as fast as is economical, it will be insured, and you can sign for it at the door. This is the one item I'll give good special service to the buyer for.
Price: 1.02BTC
ONE IN STOCK

Wednesday, July 12, 2017

Did Someone Try to Buy Something?

I woke up a while ago, early in the morning, and checked my email. As of 18 minutes ago, I got an email that says:

"7 USD online purchase"

In the subject line. It is sent to the wrong email address, but it sure got my hopes up that someone wanted to buy something from the bitcoin store.

But no, there's no purchased item listed, no address, although this could be a name.

ITEM 9 (an earlier version of TES) is the closest priced item in my store, but it's still a bit more expensive than 7 USD.

Anyway, no address listed, I can't really help.

There is a "Get more information" link ----- AGAIN it just goes to that same old "TMZ" weight-loss article.

I wonder what that's all about. Is my email censored? Is someone having a joke? Who knows.

So, yeah, there aren't enough details in this email, and it says USD, not bitcoin --- so I'm not sure I can help.

Although on Amazon.com you can get a paperback of TES for about $8.

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In other news, I've had 25 game downloads since my updates to Pfhonge and ICBM.

That is a REALLY great result after offering the updates.

Of course, at least 10 of those downloads were pre-release downloads from Razer, so it's awesome that there were 5 downloads of Pfhonge and 10 downloads of ICBM after release. 1 of each of those games was myself downloading my own game I think.

There is one almost-sort-of "bug" in ICBM I found --- it may be a feature, but who knows ----

When you save the game and quit, restart the game and load your save --- 1 of your 3 saves is already used ------ the way to get back to 0 saves used is to reboot your console before you restart the game and reload your save.

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So yeah, the recent "business" almost became awesome. but it wasn't enough to actually make an order. Ugh.

Was it trying to tell me that someone bought the paperback from a different retailer? Who knows.

Monday, July 10, 2017

I guess I'm considered a business??

Obviously, the banks are watching.

I'm guessing my chequing account bank really likes that I'm actually TRYING to do something, so they for the past year or two have been giving/offering me special not-for-the-public high-interest savings rates on my accounts.

And though I do everything as an individual, I am really just me working as myself --- pretty much like a STAR ------ (like self-employed kinda) not really as an actual business.....

My bank has sent me TWO emails from their BUSINESS department now.

I really am just an individual trying to make an extra buck for myself ----- (maybe even to someday start an actual business if I am successful at what I've already tried, which I haven't been)

but the bank sees fit apparently now to send me an email from the business department - though I don't own any business accounts.


Anyway --- their business email basically advertises that you can give gold or silver as a gift to someone for their wedding or whatever milestone.


AND YES ---- If you want to buy Silver ---- NOW IS AN ESPECIALLY DECENT TIME ---- The price of Silver is especially low as of late --- really good time to buy.


Here is my warning, however::::: My understanding is that there is a supposed collusion of bankers who are actually deliberately keeping the price of silver artificially low. So, the price of silver might not go much higher until these bankers stop artificially lowering the price.

So, it's a real good time to buy silver ---- but you have to be real patient for it to go up to a non-artificial value.

My broker says most advisers consider silver to be in a bear market right now. That means the prices are low --- and it's a good time to buy, with a hope that prices will go up some day.

Remember: Buy low sell high.

Silver is really low.

It's supposedly artificially suppressed.

really great time to buy.


But who knows when it'll turn into a bull market.


Who knows if the bankers will deflate the price even lower.

Who knows.


UPDATE:::::

I took a closer look at the email from this bank.

The email LOOKS VERY REAL. It even calls me by my name. It's sent to my proper email address.

But the domain that sent the email I do not fully recognize as an official domain of this bank unless it's something new.

And the link in the email also looks questionable just from looking at it.

The email looks so real.  But usually, I consider things like this fake when I see the wrong address or wrong linking URL.

If it's fake, then it's scary that a "fraudster" would know my name and know where I bank, plus my email.

I can only hope it's a real email ---- but the domains they have listed in their addresses don't look official.

I went to a browser and visited the domain that sent the email.

It's basically got the under-construction temporary page from the website service provider.

The name of the provider is "hover".

My game name on various platforms is "Hover Finch". Yeah, strange.

What's it all mean? OMG.

It looks like a very real email from the business department directed directly at me ----- but the URLs in the email are questionable, and the name of the domain service provider is the same word I use in my own gaming moniker.

Just so strange.


Should I be scared? This is a bit weird.


Either it is the bank or it isn't.

If it's real, then the bank is using confusing addresses.

If it's not real --- then that's really scary how they know my name and where I bank.

Sunday, July 9, 2017

Updated 2 Games For Cortex Recently - awaiting approval

Yesterday I updated Pfhonge, so it works so much nicer now on the new hardware and software ---

and today I updated ICBM, so it works even better on the new platform too.

Just have to wait for approval to publish the updates.

I suppose I can say that I've been sluggish on this work because I don't feel very popular (low on O-rank) and I've had lots of other things to do for a long time.

Today and yesterday I was able to sit down, clear my mind, and just get to work. Other days generally weren't like that.

if you want to play my games, you'll have to get a Forge TV -- cuz my games are still Cortex/OUYA-exclusive.

I think you can still buy Forge TVs from the Amazon marketplace. Look it up.




But the sad and strange thing about working on video games, books, and blogs is that I often feel like someone hacks my files, changes my source code, inserts typos into my writing.

It's actually quite often I look back on something I typed out, and I don't remember making it be that way.

It does actually feel like there's a hacker or something that changes my files. Maybe it's just me --- but seriously, I'm doubtful often that all the typos are my own fault.


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As for yesterday's story of finding mysterious Canadian Tire Money next to my emptied K-Cups on our outside picnic table ----

I asked my Dad --- "Guess what I found when I composted the coffee?"

He had no idea.

I told him how I didn't even notice it there while I was emptying the K-Cups --- but I said I found the bill.

He said he put it there. he said it had been wet and he put it there to dry.

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To me, this makes my Dad seem weird. How'd he get is CTM wet, and why dry it outside on a picnic table???  Just seems a bit strange.


So ---- either my Dad is being a bit weird, or it was God or an angel or something and my Dad is still being a bit weird anyways.

Saturday, July 8, 2017

A number of interesting and strange things to say

I've got a bunch of ground to cover in this post, so here goes::

Today while I drank coffee while everyone else watched the Bowness Stampede Parade --- I realized that yesterday, July 7th 2017, was indeed a special day.

Not only was it "777" day, but my next birthday from this day would be my 33rd birthday in 22 days.

Yup, my 33rd birthday is 22 days after 777 day.

Don't worry, I used yesterday as a day to ask God to bless the world.

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So, I've done Pfhonge version 2.2.0 update. It fixes a bug, optimizes for Android TV 6.0.1 and increases the number of allowed free plays.

I told Cortex that the update took so long because I don't feel very encouraged by the lack of popularity I seem to be experiencing on the platform.



Then, I made myself another cup of coffee --- when I remembered and realized that my parents wanted me to put the coffee from my used K-Cups in the compost.

So I took the K-Cups outside, and with a bucket on a kid's picnic table in our yard, I emptied the used coffee into the bucket.

I took the coffee bucket to the compost and came back to retrieve the used plastic part of the k cups.


I was met with something REALLY strange::::


Right next to my emptied k-cups, I found a safely-placed 10 cent bill of Canadian Tire Money.

????????


Who on earth would put their Canadian Tire Money next to the work I just completed? I didn't notice it before. It was so strange.


I remember, as I wrote in The Book of Finch, coming home from church and finding money from who knows where in my pockets -------



but now, after predicting I'd have an increase, after working on an update, after a special day, after doing as my parents ask::: BOOM ---- Canadian Tire money I find as if I was receiving payment - kind of.


It's only 10 cents CAD and only redeemable at a store here in Canada called "Canadian Tire" --- automotive, sporting and outdoor goods store.



If my Dad put that CTM there ---- that makes little to no sense.



If it was Jesus ---- I have to wonder if Jesus really knows how much this bill is really worth (it's mostly worthless).


back in 2001 "God" gave me $22.  Now he's paid me 10 cents. Huh.


yeah, just interesting and weird.

Wednesday, July 5, 2017

The Gears were turning in my head.

I was out with my father and brother today. And I silently thought to myself (my dad hates it when I talk it seems).

Remember that cropped screenshot from a few days ago where my Amazon Kindle Sales Report was entitled "Terms of Service" in the title bar?

That did seem a bit odd.

but today I thought about it.

Terms of Service.  What are the TERMS of SERVICE IN MORMONISM??? My books are heavily based on my life as a Mormon.

In Mormonism,

Service is a philosophy where you believe you will receive vaguely undefined blessings from working to help someone for free.

Amazon's "terms of service" were an empty sales report.

Mormonism's terms of service were clearly stated to be where you work for free.


Maybe that's what it was, maybe something like that was going on.




Is Mormonism really true? No and sort of. There are truths and good ideas mixed with falsehoods and bad ideas in that church. There are absolutely wonderful people in the church, and absolutely defective people ---- it's really a mixed bag.


The Mormon church has good things about it in ways, although it itself isn't necessarily the best thing --- I eventually got so annoyed with the situation there that I eventually refused to go back. Ever.


but, if I miss anything about it, it's true I sort of more or less miss the social aspect or social life of it. I'm much more lonely these days. But I'm comfortable anyways.




So yeah:::: Maybe I'm expected to work for free when telling crazy stories of Jesus appearing and all that ---- many people may view trying to profit off of stories like that as immoral.


From my perspective, I had a very interesting life, and it'd be really too bad if I couldn't profit from the story. But anyway.



My deal with God was I'd serve him for the rest of my life in exchange for exaltation.

Exaltation in the Mormon church entails marriage.

The church took away all the girlfriends I ever had and wouldn't let me get married. I'm not working for them anymore. End of story.

Tuesday, July 4, 2017

An Email from a Friend? Again?

Just moments ago I just received YET ANOTHER one of those weird emails claiming to be from someone I actually know.

The two emails I've received like this thus far both link to supposed to news stories that are supposed to be about or somehow in relation to myself.

I click the link::: I only get redirected to a "TMZ" article about weight loss, same old weight loss story.

I guess I might be famous or something. And maybe the internet is censored for me --- and I'm not really allowed to know how rich I actually am.

A Canadian bank uses or used the slogan "You're richer than you think". I bet.

I look at my game ranks on the Forge TV Cortex store, and I really have to wonder.

For a long time now, CvB has been ranked #7 in its genre, which is a pretty good rank, and only two sales reported --- while like 45 downloads reported.

????

It's like they're giving away free copies of my game, and that's enough to rank me pretty well.

of course, I'm ranked lowly on the O-Rank.

Just have to wonder.

And of course, there might even be, either truthfully or a conspiratorial deception, news designed to make you think that EVERYONE or MOST PEOPLE are too poor to afford a buck or two. Huh.

I'm just thankful I can live comfortably without extra income from books and games.

It's just that I'd have more options in my life if I made more money from my work. It's not totally necessary, but that's what I would've hoped for (and I'm saying this just after a post telling reasons I don't the extras. Hah).

So yeah, weird emails that claim to be from a friend linking to news stories about me that get censored and replaced by a TMZ article about weight loss.

Yeah, fame. Huh.

Should I Regret it?

Yesterday I received what seemed like a really big opportunity that really spoke to my pride and my ego --- and it even seemed possible --- though maybe not totally reasonable.

Should I regret passing it up?

Another truth about my life is that I'm actually quite comfortable and happy with the way things have been for the past numerous years.

I am mentally ill, and I don't need more stress, as well as it may affect performance (maybe).

My household, which has 4 people and 3 incomes, is already making pretty close to 100k a year. We share with each other. It's a good life. Do I need more?

My family revenue streams will undergo some changes likely in the coming months --- I did some calculations and I think we'll still be doing pretty good with how things will eventually turn out to be going.


So yeah, that offer I received yesterday was something that really speaks to my ego and my pride ---- I just figured it was too stressful and too risky, and I'm happy with what I already have, I am pretty comfortable in life.



Of course, for the past long time I've been asking God about things, I could be doing. I finally get a chance at something, and I pass it up. That doesn't seem too good. Oh well.


If I had my own place to live, I would be lonely. If I got married, that could go any-which-way, but also is not entirely necessary.

Just comfortable where I am.

Monday, July 3, 2017

Was sent an opportunity

Just a day after predicting that I could become very wealthy in the not-too-distant future, I received an email.

Luckily, this is not one of those things I have to keep secret --- because mostly I hate keeping secrets.

It was basically a big offer, that did make some level of sense and could have been honest and more or less on "the level" that they said, perhaps a bit enthusiastically and maybe admittedly, exaggerated maybe even a little bit, that they said would help me achieve some level of great wealth.

Thank you, for thinking of me that way, for trying to help.

Reasons I didn't go for it:

Though having a millionaire mentor is considered desirable, I am introverted and actually dislike telephones.

Also, though I could technically afford the money they asked for me to get started, it didn't fully make sense that I would have to pay that sort of thing or anything at all.

The idea presented did make sense, pretty much, but I am certain it wasn't a 100% guarantee of success ----- maybe it's a good thought that has potential, and maybe it was honest, if a little bit exaggerated maybe, but I personally did not view it as a 100% chance thing.

And when it's not 100% in my own eyes, even though it did seem reasonable, having to talk on the phone to some stranger about following a bunch of steps wasn't too interesting.

I mean, it definitely seemed like a good idea, it may even have been honest, but I didn't feel like uselessly risking that kind of money to receive phone calls that I don't really want.

Biggest reason::: I HATE THE TELEPHONE (maybe a bit exaggerated).

And::: It didn't totally make sense that I would have to pay anything up front initially at all. If it was such a great way of doing things::: it should be free for me.


But yeah, it did seem like an honest offer, but it didn't get past me. Thanks for trying to help.



Oh ---- and it came to the inbox of my old "porno email" --- the same email that someone who claimed to be a famous billionaire once wrote to.


Possible, but I don't know. Thanks for trying. It did seem like a way of doing things, but my suggestion, rather than putting me through phone calls and making me pay a fee, even a small fee,

would be to have everything written down on a secure web page where I'd be able to access the information. Maybe that's too much to ask of people who might not be able to type, but that's how I'd go for it. Videos are ok too.

I hate the telephone, I am technically still at least somewhat mentally ill.



UPDATE:::::

When I finally picked up my cell phone today to get ready for "doing stuff with my day" - I noticed I had received a phonecall from the UK.

Phonecalls from the UK, last time I checked, always seemed to involve those Binary Trading people.

Even if I was there to take the call when it happened, I know I probably wouldn't have taken it.

But I looked up the number online, and I didn't find any exact match, but there was some small "coincidental" evidence that it may be related to the email I got earlier in this post.

So, I had a cup of coffee, and then my apple watch beeped ------ someone new followed me on twitter.

The entity that followed me wasn't an individual, it was more like a company or a website of sorts ---- perhaps a business entity.

And their latest tweet said something about or mentioned::: the same famous billionaire who previously supposedly sent an email to my "porno email".

OMG.

Wow. Huh.  Considering the things I'm into, I wouldn't be surprised. Huh.

Sunday, July 2, 2017

Making a Public Prediction

For a long time, people did not give my belief in telepathy any credit. But, nowadays psychologists and psychiatrists are more accepting and willing to let me have my belief.

In my experience, there are times when the telepathic information I receive is so eerily connected to reality, that I have developed a great deal of faith in certain kinds of information I receive.

So, now, on this blog, I will announce a prediction.

The thoughts giving me this prediction more or less make sense, and they have been repeated so often for the past several weeks that I am willing to believe it will come true.

The prediction:::::

Some day, probably in the not-too-distant future, I will experience a substantial gain in my personal wealth.

My commentary::::

Most of my money is now being lost to pay for dental work. But, I have done so much work without pay that I likely, cosmically, actually deserve more than what I am given or have.

I do not know exactly what this increase in wealth will be::: it could be an increase in my government benefits to minimum wage level, it could be maybe that I'll somehow acquire my own place to live (just a guess) --- there are so many possibilities for what it could be that I likely can't list it all here because I can't even imagine it.

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And yeah, this is really good news. I've been hearing it more or less repeatedly in my mind for quite the past while ---- so as I have experienced, this is the sort of thing I would believe would come true.

Saturday, July 1, 2017

My Canada 150th Anniversary Post

I was the first in my family to get up from bed this morning (as is pretty much always the case).

I used my Christmas Keurig to make myself some coffee, poured myself a bowl of special birthday cake froot loops, ate all that, and sat down on the sofa.

Yesterday I bought a book entitled "The World Needs More Canada" from a local bookstore, and this morning, alone, as my family slept, I went through many of the pages.

The book is the testimonies and statements of numerous famous Canadians, most artists of some kind, talking about what Canada means to them, or what it means to be Canadian, or some variation of that kind of discussion.

The book, of course, included Chris Hadfield, who is noted in the book to be an "Inter-Galactic Rock Star". His testimony was definitely quite patriotic.

Lots of very interesting stuff in that book.

But I noticed, from looking at the Index at the back, that Avril Lavigne and Justin Bieber were not included in the pages.

I thought about my life, my experiences, and realized: "Yes, there are probably some pretty good reasons why they were left out".

Avril Lavigne is my hero, but it's enough to say that there was a dysfunctional situation in her fan club, and really, it wasn't very good. I'm like the Sk8er Boi but they reject me. Like that was honorable or made sense in any way.

When my Mom woke up I told her I had been reading the book --- and the book is really pretty awe-inspiring about Canada.

But then I thought about my own life as a Canadian. Looking back on my childhood, and into my adulthood, and I realized::::: There is something really quite dysfunctional about many people, or especially children.

Basically, as we grow up in school, and all that, we have the wisdom of the ages readily available at our fingertips ----- and yet, in my experience, so many young people seemed to just ignore all the good ideas people have had over time. Yes, it was pretty dysfunctional.

But I will say this for Canada:::: It is absolutely amazing and magnificent, more or less, how much tolerance was given to me despite the absolute dysfunction I experienced in my life. In any other country, my life may have turned out so much worse considering the situations ---- but here in Canada I was taken care of, freed from a bad situation, tolerated despite almost becoming a sociopath (more or less) and they even really, really tried or have helped me. This country has a constitutionally enshrined education system, so I had the opportunity to learn and do my best with my own ability.

I do believe that Canada is a really great country, I realize that my situation would very much likely be so much worse in pretty much any other country.

Life dealt me a pretty bad hand in life, but in Canada, it actually turned out pretty well.

One quote or variation of a quote from the book I read said: "We have billionaires who were born in caves". Some variation or something like that. This very much may be considered the truth of myself, in some figurative sense.

So yeah, there were a lot of really great things to read about it that book. Great book for today and I recommend it, although I am aware:::::

That a lot of people apparently can't spend money on things, because my own sales were dismal as well as because::::: SHARETHEMEAL from the WORLD FOOD PROGRAMME at the UNITED NATIONS was TRYING to raise 150,000 meals from Canada to celebrate, and they even got a well known Canadian TV Celebrity to be their ambassador for this project, but as of this moment they have only received donations for 7,210 meals from just 119 people. That's less than 5% of the goal ON THE DAY the goal was supposed to be achieved (or something like that).

I am afraid that many Canadians do face financial hardship, and that must explain why sales may have been so lackluster, and why this charitable celebration project seems to have hit a brick wall.

Let's not forget at Avril Lavigne's last birthday charity fundraiser that she didn't even meet her goal, and most of the money that was donated was donated by a business that would likely have been able to afford it.

So, let's look forward to a future where everyone can be taken care of, where automation increases because of technology and everyone gets by with, perhaps, the one-day future hope or plan of a Universal Basic Income. Look it up, you can study the concept. All major parties in Canada believe it's a good idea, they just don't get along about how to implement it and are probably not working very hard on implementing it, but it is an idea for the future of our country, and other western countries. But anyway.

YEAH CANADA.