so, my business fails, I found I hadn't much to do ---
but tada! my dad found an online computer science course that I can take over the next year.
So that's what I'm doing.
Early this morning I found I couldn't sleep, so I did the first bunch of lessons in this course.
Will I be able to complete it? Will my mentally ill mind explode from all the information?
I guess I'll just have to pace myself.
The course says it awards a certificate or degree or something, so I guess that would be nice to have.
I just have to take it one step at at time and keep going at it.
What I really feel like posting about is all the nonsense in my mind about how badly my business failed and my wonderings about why it failed and trying to think of things to say about that, but it's all pointless hopeless and vain for me to do that.
My attempt at working failed. I should get over it. It was fun while it lasted.
With all the open source development going on, I should just accept that it's very difficult to get paid for software work.
Who knows? Maybe after I finish this computer science course I can work in and be a part of the open source community too. Maybe. We'll see.
There's also stuff that happened in my heart in relation to spirituality, but as Jesus said - don't let your right hand know what your left hand does ----- so therefore I'm not sure I'll go into detail about my prayers here. I just wish the world well, I guess, is how I can put it.
1) Going to try to learn lots of computer stuff over the next year. My brain might explode.
2) Wanting to talk and fuss about my failed business, but there's no point, it's all vain.
3) And I'm excited about something I've started to pray for, but I shouldn't really talk about that either. It's a good thing, don't worry.