Monday, June 6, 2016

Feelings of Movement - a new start?

My life has more or less been stagnating for the past while - I'm not really going anywhere or doing much, except trying to sell a video game that probably won't sell.

I was laying down, and I have this incredible feeling of intensely fast movement come over me.

I'm not moving much, but I feel like I am absolutely flying. It's weird, it's like there's a magnet and I'm a piece of iron and I'm almost getting lifted out of my seat, sort of.

This is completely new to my sense of mental illness ----

but sometimes feeling things are indications of the world around us, or of things coming in life.

It almost felt as if I wasn't going to be living here anymore. I'm not quite sure how to interpret it.


Is this a good thing or a bad thing?



Last night, when talking to GOD, I got the impression that God wanted good things for me and that I might be headed towards some kind of new start.

Or at least, that's what I remember or think I remember.






I just want to say that I really, really tried in my life. Things didn't turn out very well, though I suppose it could have been worse.

I was a good student. I paid attention in school, did my homework, tried to be well behaved, although I know I wasn't perfect.

Whether it be my circumstances or mental illness in people around me or who knows what --- I eventually snapped in my life, I had a breakdown ----- and things weren't working out very well.

Personally, I feel I can or could say that I really was trying my best in life, I tried so hard ----- but there was so much around me in my world that was just completely out of "whack".


So, I've tried - I tried to be a good boy. I really did. And yes I snapped --- if only you could look through the crystal ball to see what I had to put up with.





So yeah, I just have a maybe-psychic sense of intense movement, which I interpret to mean I'll be going somewhere, or something like that. I would hope for good things, but knowing my life and how things go it really might not be so good.




At least God seemed encouraging when I talked to Him last night. He did seem interested in my welfare.


And when I say "God" --- I mean the spiritual connection I make with a being that I had been taught to make such connection since I was very young.

Religions might misrepresent Him, so I'm not quite sure exactly how to define who He is. But he is there, I'm sure of it.






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As for this feeling of extreme movement or momentum I think I feel, it's like I'm flying in a really fast aircraft or somesuch to that effect. It's a really weird sensation - and I don't know why.


1) Yesterday on Twitter I saw that Avril Lavigne posted a picture of herself flying over the British Columbian mountains.
2) Avril's husband, Chad Kroeger's band Nickelback plays a song about feeling like you are flying a million miles an hour.

It's just so weird how I'm feeling this, and how I relate it to someone I respect very much.

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