One of my uncles once referred to The Book of Finch as "heavy". That's probably the politest way he could put it. From that story, I think I risk ridicule, and maybe my life --- and with some of the subject matter in that book it's not hard to imagine that someone would take a disliking to something and get me banned from a favourite place - such as the Avril Lavigne fanclub.
I mean, I was grown up to be obsessive and in love with Mormonism, and the females of my family still haven't figured out the truth about that church ---- but being conditioned to love that church and then finding out the actual truths about what they believe, you may have some legal entanglements.
So --- I've given up on the church, and you need not worry about me causing trouble in their name anymore. I know what I know, but that's no reason to ban me from anything --- although people who are still Mormon might take issue with me.
Anyway --- for so long I was so depressed, so suicidal. I've discovered that every single member of my immediate family excluding nieces nephews and in-laws are mentally ill. If you grew up in my house hold ---- you are automatically cursed with a mental illness of some kind.
There are probably reasons for how that happened, and it is very unfortunate, but I am HAPPY TO SAY:::
THAT I AM RECOVERING!!!! I am working on projects again, like I used to, the old workaholic I used to be again, I'm happy, I'm enjoying video games like I used to. I mean, for me to be me --- I have to be playing video games, there's no getting around that. I've loved video games since I was capable of playing them, and I am now able to sit down and play them again, and enjoy them ---- that that is a very good and positive sign.
For so long I would just mope about and pity party about how horrible various aspects of my life have been ---- but now I don't even feel capable of having any more pity parties, I'm no longer confined to laying around and bemoaning everything ------ I'm having a good time, even by myself with few friends.
Basically, this blog post has two points:::
I hope I don't get in trouble for being involved in a church that gave me viewpoints that would or even should be immediately condemned,
and for so long I was so out of it ---- but I am getting back into it and I am really, really having a good time, as far as good times and myself are concerned. It's wonderful.
What a wonderful life.