Sunday, July 19, 2015

My Mental Illness

I am considered mentally ill. For a long time, I didn't accept that, but as time has moved on I've come to whole-heartedly accept the diagnosis that I am suffering from severe mental issues.

With everything I've been through in my life, there is no escaping the simple fact that it's all so messed up that I can't help but have a broken brain after having gone through all that garbage.

It's not really my own fault that I'm mentally ill, as I have understood.

But mental illness is a very big problem in the lives of the sufferers and those around the sufferers.

Though it is true that my diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia was considered a wrong diagnosis by a nurse, that was only after it was discovered provably that the church really did try to give me miracle powers, and after it was completely explained that I really was being prosecuted based on false allegations.

Paranoid schizophrenics have persecution delusions, meaning they feel they are being so hated while this is actually not true.

In my own life, it turned out I really was actually being falsely accused and persecuted based on false allegation, therefore the diagnosis of "paranoid schizophrenia" couldn't stick.

But, I am still considered schizophrenic, or schizophreniform --- and whatever the case may be, I read on Web MD that schizophrenia, the problem I suffer from, is the most serious and severe kind of mental illness -- as I read on Web MD.

Is mental illness contagious? Personally, I think it might be, not because of chemical interactions between people - but because of social interactions between the mentally ill and the mentally healthy.

Being around crazy people might drive you insane - I believe this because this is what I feel is what happened in my own life.

I'm sorry if I'm just a big nuisance with my massive brain problems ---- but in the past months or year or what have you, my doctor has told me that I am showing big improvements, I'm getting better.

This is good.

Anyway, I'm sorry that I'm so messed up, or have been so messed up. But it's not necessarily my own fault that I've been so messed up.

I have determined one big reason my brain got so messed up is because of my involvement with LDS Mormonism, with how my parents were baptized shortly after I was born and how I grew up in the religion. I could go on forever on this subject. Just know, that this church really isn't actually true, it's a big lie and a sham, and it helped drive me to be mentally ill. I believe so at least.

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