Friday, January 23, 2015

Forgiving Things

Growing up in the LDS church, the church leaders such as bishop and young mens advisors were constantly giving us young men a hard time about masturbating.

Masturbation was just such a problem apparently, they couldn't just leave us alone.

Anyway, my understanding of my own life is that the ghost of my grandmother sexually abused me right after she died, and therefore I was instantly addicted to sex, and I found I physically needed to masturbate or else go crazy from strong and intense feelings of sexual need (that I would go crazy from if I didn't fulfill, or masturbate).

Anyway, upon discovering that I actually masturbate because my grandmother's ghost was sexually abusing me, what is the church gonna say about that?

Something tells me that it's gonna be D&C 64, where we are required to forgive all men.

So there you go. Like with every terrible sin or crime, the LDS church will just require me to forgive my grandmother for the way she abused me.


Which brings up a question::::::



IF I just have to forgive my grandmother for sexually abusing me, THEN WHY ON EARTH WERE THE LEADERS GIVING THE YOUNG MEN SUCH A HARD TIME ABOUT MASTURBATION IN THE FIRST PLACE????


I mean, a sexual abuser can just be forgiven.  But someone with overpowering hormones has to be constantly criticized and essentially abused about the type and nature of their body, or even just criticized constantly for making their own choice.


Yup --- it makes no sense, they'd tell you that you are required to forgive sexual abuse, but they constantly hound individuals about what they do with themselves in their private time, so I'm kind of wondering what their definition of "forgive" is or what their logic is.



Is it a situation where I'm supposed to not feel angry at my grandmother but they'll still punish her? That sounds like the mormon definition of forgiveness, but it's not actual forgiveness.


Like, when the church locked me up and forced me on drugs and told me to not believe in God anymore::: Was that an LDS church expression of forgiveness??


If my grandmother has to be punished for molesting me, or if I had to be locked up by the church for what I did-----


Then why did the Bishop insist that the Liability's had to be forgiven of their angry and vicious behaviour?


1st off::: Their senseless anger was an instant indication that they should have been dealt with, or should not have been forgiven, in the first place, even according to mormon doctrine---

But they were forgiven of senseless and vicious anger. They weren't supposed to be, but they were.

The thing is, if I get punished for doing something wrong, or if my grandmother has to be dealt with in the spirit world ----- Then why couldn't the church just deal with the Liability's?



Actually, a while back I discussed this with my dad, and he just decided that the church works a double standard, where some people always get forgiven regardless of the crime while others always have to forgive others but don't get forgiven. Just decided it was a double standard, and it makes the church look very untrue.


So basically:::

If my grandmother had to be forgiven, then why constantly pester the young men about what they might do in private?

And if my grandmother has to be dealt with for what she did, then why where the Liability's not dealt with especially when it was clear that their type of sin should have been dealt with?



That's just what I had on my mind this evening.

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