Friday, November 28, 2014

Powerful Precognition Experience, Glad it still happens

Well, I was laying in bed this morning telling myself how much I've lost any hope or chance to attain LDS Celestial Exaltation or anything as such, and then I used my ipad to check download and sales reports.

When I was checking my Amazon report, I found out that yesterday or last night someone downloaded The Book of Finch from amazon.com.


So, as I always do I go to amazon.com to check my sales rank::: but this time as I entered amazon.com I was overcome by a great thought telling me that I have one new review --- before I was able to see the review status on my book.


Yup::: despite having lost any hope of celestial exaltation, my mind experienced precognition anyway, where I'm aware of something true before I see it with any of my regular 5 senses.


Anyway, the new review (the 6th review on amazon.com) is 3 star, and the reviewer just says they "Don't know where this came from".



That wasn't too hard to read. I guess I'm just a 3 star kind of guy, and well, though it's not much of a review, I guess he's saying he doesn't know me or doesn't know calgary, or maybe it's in reference to Calgary 8th Ward which doesn't exist anymore.

As for my current position on the church::: I guess I am still capable of feeling good and positive about mormonism, especially as I've experienced wondrous things with that church----
but it's also not hard for me to see heavy and deep flaws in the organization. That combined with my own flaws and a historical unwillingness of the church to forgive those, and well, even with my wondrous testimony I'm not too interested anymore and the most I think about the church is mostly just my own psychological problems, trying to deal with it.
And, as I've said, I think I've lost whatever opportunity I may have ever had to attain that Celestial Exaltation. I'm done.





Wednesday, November 26, 2014

Avril's Salvation and Positive Thought Processes

So, the person who I will refer to as "Ms Sunshine" was getting me all into positive thinking, insomuch that I prayed to God that i would remember only good things and forget all the bad stuff.

That prayer mostly worked, but even so it's not hard for some problems to arise on my mind.

Anyway:: Back to the question of AVRIL LAVIGNE'S POTENTIAL SALVATION.

Either Avril Lavigne can or could have potentially been saved, or she could never have been saved. There is no third option:: she could come to heaven, or she could never come to heaven.

Well, as I said in The Book of Finch, ol' Bishop Stevens decided that I couldn't be friends with Avril because of the beat and tempo of her music being wrong and because she wore the wrong clothing.

Essentially, the bishop decided to damn Avril to hell because she's a rockstar and wasn't already a Mormon.

Now:::: I find it highly unreasonable and even just plain not right that someone would be damned to hell just because of popular musical talent.

I mean, what the Bishop essentially said was "She's a non-mormon rockstar so she'll go to hell for eternity" and he didn't think of any idea that she could ever have been saved.

So really, the Bishop decided that Avril would be damned to hell for completely frivolous reasons.

Of course, throughout my socializations on this topic, I have encountered numerous people, all mormon, who believe that Avril Lavigne in fact CAN potentially be saved.  God loves everyone, so Avril could be saved, and shouldn't be damned to hell.

Basically, it's a situation where people really do see and understand that the Bishop was, in fact, wrong in his position that Avril Lavigne could never be saved.

THE BISHOP WAS WRONG. It's that simple. Being a non-mormon rockstar is absolutely in no way a valid reason to damn someone to hell.

It is so very clear, in the eyes of so many people, that the Bishop did something stupid, he did something not right, the bishop was essentially consciously deciding to hurt someone just because they weren't already Mormon.

Anyway, somehow I did meet a couple LDS people who felt that the Bishop was in no way wrong and is such a good person that you could never criticize him, and that it was wrong to criticize him.



Just by saying "his decision was bad" or "his decision was wrong" I have criticized him.  And a couple people felt that I was wrong to criticize him, just because he was the bishop and therefore he must be a good person.


Anyway, if The Bishop cannot be criticized for what he said, then where does that put Avril's potential salvation?

Either Avril CAN be saved and the bishop was wrong,

or:

The Bishop was right and Avril will burn in hell forever just because she's not already LDS.



I am actually seriously surprised that people would prefer to damn Avril to hell for eternity just so they can say the bishop was never wrong about anything.  That is completely senseless and just plain, well, stupid.



Anyway, most LDS people I've talked to do seem to think that Avril could come to heaven,

Therefore the Bishop was wrong to criticize her music and clothing, and if criticizing her music and clothing was a bad idea, then there was really no good reason to say that she couldn't be friends with me.


Avril COULD be friends with me ---- The Bishop was actually just being completely unreasonable by trying to force an end to our friendship.

Monday, November 24, 2014

Too Happy and Super-Excitable

So, I'm still in a very good mood about Mormonism.  Today I visited LDS.org. I saw something about a youtube personality on LDS.org front page, Lindsey Stirling.  That was strange to me because LDS people had just been telling me on Facebook that the church isn't there to drive traffic or customers to privately held businesses, which I thought was a strange thing to tell me, and I was confirmed in that notion by the fact that LDS.org had Lindsey Stirling right there on their front page.

Anyway, I've looked at a few of Lindsey Stirling's videos.

Her one video, combined with the preceding advertisement, really made me think and got me over excited about small similarities I saw with The Eagle's Sore (mostly the advertisement, though, actually).

Anyway, I then thought about how 22 Jump Street has a scene in it which appears to be relatable to a scene in The Eagle's Sore, thinking that Sony may have just lifted it from my book (I was a Sony shareholder when they released that movie)...

Then I thought back to last year, 2013.

In spring of 2013, I actually started work on A SEQUEL TO THE EAGLE'S SORE.  I finished the first few chapters, let it sit for a while, and then I noticed something strange:::

Remember how I reported that Avril Lavigne's music video for Rock n Roll seemed to draw inspiration from Disney and Eminem?

Well, I also had some reason to suspect that she may have hacked my sequel file or read my book or something because her music video also seemed to have had inspiration from The Eagle's Sore and the Sequel.  Just comparable things.

Anyway, yeah, I kept it quiet that I suspected she hacked my files, but I just felt like writing this blog post, exposing this little thing, now, because I wanted to say:::

I was working on a sequel to The Eagle's Sore, but then I stopped when I saw Avril Lavigne's music video because she "copied" me and people would think my sequel was copying her.

I also realized there was absolutely no money in me writing books, because even if I did advertise and get over 900 readers::: of the 1000+ readers of my book who I am aware of::: only ONE ever paid for a copy.

Yup::: I gave away ~100 at release, advertised a bunch, eventually (according to a site of low repute) over 900 people ripped off The Eagle's Sore, so there are probably over 1000 readers of that book now, and of all the 1000 readers, only ONE person has ever given me money for the book, and that was just because she was being very nice (and it really did lift my mood too).

Anyway.  Yeah.  I pretty much said everything I was thinking there.  This is the first time I've publicly stated that I thought there was too much similarity between Avril Lavigne's music video and a book I was working on which had not yet been completed or released ---- which occurrence in itself, (spoiler alert!) can be seen as the sort of thing that would happen in the book series.

Anyway.

Saturday, November 22, 2014

I seem to be seemingly turning Pro-Mormon again.

OK, so like I said, I have this old LDS friend who is shining her sunshine on me and I feel lifted right up about it. The negative emotions and attitudes are disappearing, and I'm becoming more positive and happy about things.


Part of my tentative conversion back to Mormonism is a story that happens near the end of The Book of Finch::::

I sent Dallin H Oaks a letter. I swore at him in that letter. I was very upset about what I went through in the church.

Later that year, I had impressions on my mind 3 nights in 1 week, telling me to go outside so I could see or meet Jesus Christ.

All three nights when I went outside, I DID SEE SOMEONE WHO I would've identified as Jesus Christ.


Anyway, on the second night, Jesus never said a word, but he did make hand-signals at me.

I have since learned that one of those hand-signals was a lot like, resembling, or just the very same as a hand signal used in LDS temple rituals.

OK - I probably shouldn't say more even though I'm not under any covenants of keeping it quiet, but just to not rock the boat:::

I've never been to the LDS temple ceremonies beyond baptisms for the dead.

After writing hate-mail to Dallin H Oaks, Jesus Christ appeared to me, and one of the hand-signals he made resembled an LDS temple thing.

I've got an old LDS friend who is being very sunny, I have found friendship, and I can't help but feel a pro-moromon attitude arise in me, bolstered by my testimony of Jesus.


For a long time it was hard for me to tell if the Jesus I saw was the Mormon Jesus or the Christian Jesus, and maybe it's still too difficult to tell for certain, but right now my mind is totally going "That was Mormon Jesus!!!" Hah. Who knows.


Anyway, my LDS friend has agreed with me that Avril Lavigne can potentially be saved.


Which means there are divided parties in the LDS church, as near as I can tell.  There are the wheat, and there are the tears.  There's the good and the bad.

I can now conceptualize in my mind a good Mormon, being pro-mormon, and then ignoring some of the garbage some of these "LDS" people come up with. Yay. :)

Telepathy Experience with Avril "Bandaids"

So, here is yet another little telepathy experience I had just recently involving Avril Lavigne Bandaids.


Yesterday as I was going about my business, I heard a thought in my mind say something along the lines of "Kicked off the forum" or "almost kicked off the forum", or something like that.

Of course, I had no idea what that meant or if it had anything to do with anything because I'm not involved in any forum activity right now.


Well, this morning I went into facebook, only to find a facebook post by Avril Bandaids that said they are working to resolve a bug they have in their forum.


Their forum apparently has some issues, and yes, I see this as being directly related to the thoughts I heard yesterday.


Basically --- just more evidence of a real telepathic relationship with Avril or something.



The reason it was so important for me to demonstrate or prove my telepathy esp telepathy with Avril is because I was telepathizing with her since 2003, but in 2004 the Bishop said I had nothing to do with her, that we were not actually "with" each other.

Well, all the telepathy I've done says we are with each other, which means the bishop was wrong.


Unfortunately, I'm not sure LDS church people are even capable of admitting that their bishop was actually wrong about something, so that's just kind of sad.

Anyway.

Friday, November 21, 2014

Sunny & Grumpy

I'm writing this on my iPhone right now so I probably won't say much, I just want to say that an old friend from church is making my life a bit more sunny, I can feel it affect my mind and emotions - but I can't help but remember all sorts of problems and get grumpy.

On one hand I know the church probably isn't for me, and on the other hand I see an individual being very friendly and inviting.

Her sunshine is powerful but my grumpiness is strong. It's confusing.

I am actually now wishing I weren't so negative, yet my mind remembers past wrongs so easily.

All very difficult to reconcile and very confusing.

I'm sorry, life's not perfect I guess.

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

Feeling Rejected by Mormonism

I grew up poor. I've never learned to drive a car because my or my family's finances were never good enough for that.

Being poor means I can't have a family of my own, and it's difficult because I'm disabled enough that it's hard for me to socialize and therefore work for a living, and the government income I'm on is just enough to get my debts paid eventually --- but there's little to no hope of ever marrying.

The LDS church said I would be sealed to a companion of my choice. They said I would be a travelling preacher to the nations as a young man.

Not only did the completely reject me from marrying any girl I would have wanted to marry (as at those points in life I might have had a hope of getting out of the hole), and thus also neglected to save Avril Lavigne's soul --- but I am actually seeing myself as financially incapable of doing what the church said I would do --- getting married and being a travelling preacher.

I COULD have been a travelling preacher (maybe) if the church didn't reject any notion of friendship between me and Avril Lavigne, but the church wanted to be hilarious so I couldn't go down that path in life.

So, another path I could follow to get to the goal of having a family and travelling and preaching for the Lord would be to sell product online and use those proceeds to fund the life the church said I was supposed to live.

I calculate that if 1/4th of the church (the 'church' meaning ~5 million active members, so about 1.25 million people) just bought only one of my products online from me each, for about $0.99 per product, I could afford to at least have a family - hopefully.

Basically, by putting out my books and videogames I'm the beggar with the tin-cup extended looking for just $1 each from my people.

There are beggars, who I find can get $0.25-$10 just for asking without providing any services.

I'm asking for just $0.99 from each individual, and I provide a product in exchange for that $0.99.

But does my church care about me enough to help me do what they said I was supposed to do? Of course not! Most people in the church don't give a rat's ass about me! And if they do download even a free product from me, the chances I'll ever get paid seem extremely remote!


Anyway --- The LDS church gave me that patriarchal blessing, it seems, without any care of helping me or even allowing me to achieve the things I was blessed with.

Maybe the church is punishing me for some sin and won't let me have my blessings because I did something naughty.

So much for the "forgive all men" requirement.

And if they are acting in God's name to punish me -- isn't it interesting that our kind merciful loving and gracious heavenly father and his son, well, God, essentially --- isn't it interesting that God would be the most unforgiving of all the mormons?

The mormons say such nice things about him, like I listed in the above paragraph, but according to their own doctrine GOD is actually the least forgiving and most uptight mormon that's ever supposed to have existed.

Everyone forgives. Except God. To earn forgiveness from God, it's a lot of hard work and suffering.

And that's what's strange about this situation:: I offered my whole lifetime of service to God so I could be forgiven of my sins, but the church instead punishes me in God's name so I won't be able or allowed to provide the service I offered.

If it's not God punishing me, then the only other option is that the people of this church are all failing to do as they are supposed to --- which is probably the more correct answer.

Anyway - that's just my rant.

I COULD do what my patriarchal blessing said I'd do, but the church rejected Avril Lavigne from salvation (which makes the church seem dick-ish) and even if I hold out my tin-cup looking for my $1 from ~1/4th of all the mormons, they wouldn't give it to me.

Either they won't help me because they are all disobedient (the commandment to help the poor) or they think they can punish me for my sins.

I offered my whole lifetime of service to be forgiven for those sins. If they punish me so quickly I WON'T be able to work them off. God said what he wanted me to do in that patriarchal blessing, and if he's not going to let me work for my forgiveness then I guess I'm just damned forever. The church wouldn't even give me a chance to put forth the effort to find the forgiveness.

I offered my whole lifetime in service. And the church rejected me. What more can I offer? I have nothing more than my lifetime to offer.

I already did everything I could do --- according to Mormonism, I should/may receive my salvation anyway, I guess. It's just disappointing that the church appears so dysfunctional.

Who I should be

So, for quite a while I've been asking God the questions: "Who should I be? What should I be doing?"

More or less, God always seems to respond with an idea that I can be and do whatever I want to be or do.

I have an idea that this response stems from my history with the LDS church where if God actually told me something, the LDS church would disbelieve, deny it, and call me crazy.

Essentially, if that's the way the church responds to my personal revelation from Him, if that is how the church responds to my prayerful communications, then God can't really instruct me to do anything specifically because no one would believe me about my instructions.

He just lets me do whatever I want.


I also get an idea that because the church would reject my personal revelation for myself as insanity, that the church isn't really true either.



I know a few days ago I was overcome by the kindness of old mormon friends, and I had no way to argue with that --- but as of last night I just had to remember how my patriarchal blessing turned out and this morning I'm asking God what I should do ----- and regardless of these people's kindness to me along with their truth claims ---- I cannot see how the church could actually be true in my own mind.


If the church was true, God could tell me to be or do something and the church wouldn't argue with it.

But historically, when God has asked me to be or do things, the church argues vehemently and calls me crazy - forcing me on drugs.

If that's how the church responds to personal revelation, then the church isn't really true, and God knows better than to try to get me to do anything (because no one will accept my personal revelation even if I am just discussing my own life).

There you go.

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Maintaining a Good Mood

So, the day after my post before this one, I was visited by an old LDS friend.

She bore gifts.

It's very hard to argue with that much kindness.

I practically forgot a lot of problems for quite a while, and I'm still in a very good mood about my old friends show of kindness and sympathy.

If the LDS church is the devil's church -- then I can only suppose that all the nice and kind behavior is just part of the deception-

but it's very difficult to argue with that nice and kind behavior.

I am in a very good mood, and for a long time I attributed a level of satisfaction with what the LDS church could be or trying to achieve.

Since, I've remembered parts of the LDS disaster (the church does seem like a big disaster in my life), balanced that with the miraculous things I learned in the church, and realized that every individual is different, and that my friend who gifted me was doing so from her own free will which may have been influenced by the church.

Yes- I'm still in a good mood, I'm not thinking the sad thoughts I usually have about mormonism.

Basically:: the kindness of this individual has lifted me out of my pit of begrudging anguish, and I'm in a good mood, and it's hard to stay mad at the church after that.

But --- I do remember that some people in the church are contrary to me rather than friendly, and that counter-balances whatever desire I may have had to return to church.

Besides, I might never fully reactivate in mormonism with all my coffee drinking and my seeming inability to calm down my hormones, or those demons, or whatever the case may be.

Anyway --- just sayin' I'm still in a good mood about the church, and it's largely because someone was being very friendly towards me.

The Amazing Kreskin teaches that hypnosis works through the power of suggestion. Through a suggestion, you can feel happy and uplifted as my friend recently did to me, and I even imagine that through suggestion you can even feel grumpy or angry or hurt.

I'm saying this because I was taught in church that "no one can make you angry, you control your attitude", being taught that no one else has any power over your emotions, essentially.

I would say that this teaching from church is actually a false teaching. Hypnosis is powerful::: the suggestion of someone's behavior on your mind could create good or bad feelings, I think.

The church teacher was basically saying "people can be dicks all the time but you shouldn't respond to that because you are perfectly capable of controlling your emotions and not letting it get you down".

I would say that teaching might be true for SOME people, but for others it is not true. The power of suggestion may influence your emotional state.

I remember, especially in grade 12 -- that I was very easily driven to tears, and I had a very hard time controlling some of my emotions.

And as for the angry outbursts::: after the way I was treated by the angry and dishonest Liabilitys, and the Liabilitys were forgiven for their behavior, I would have thought that my anger would be let off the hook too. Nope -- it was the case of a double standard, where one Mormon family gets to be as abominable as they want and be let off the hook while if I was anything similar I would be punished for it.

That's another reason why I'm not sure I'd really return to mormonism.

But all in all, I'm in a much better mood, I don't have all kinds of negative thoughts about the church, and the tangent I went on in this blog post was the most negative my thinking about the church has been all day.

Friday, November 14, 2014

Looking Kindlier Upon the LDS Church Again

So, it's 6pm and the day is ending with me feeling nicer, happier, kindlier towards the LDS church again.

One LDS person sent me a nice and supportive facebook post and encouraged me to forget past wrongs --- that started to boost my mood today.

Then my brother mentioned a scripture to me in The Book of Mormon, and after hours of not totally understanding him or thinking about it --- it suddenly struck me how that scripture may be seen to apply to me personally in how I experienced the church.

A friend of my dad's from church visited us today, and we had a good long chinwag, and I felt comfortable with that.



So ---- I just have to say, that at the end of today I get a sense of "good rapport" from the Mormons.



I do kind of still have confusions or questions about the LDS church like history and doctrine, but my personal relationship with those people is "looking up", it would seem, if today is any indication.


I would like to discuss the scripture my brother shared with me and how I see it apply in my own life -- but I won't because I'm guessing that someone out there may find it offensive in some way, shape, or form. I'm not taking any firm positions right now, but at least I might have gained insight into what happened in my life.

And I just feel better and happier about the LDS church after today.

Sunday, November 9, 2014

First Telepathy for quite a while

So, it's been a while since I last posted about telepathy experiments. One big reason for this is that of the few tests I did over the past months, I mostly didn't do very well, achieving 0/3's and maybe a few 1/3's.

Today I did 4 telepathy tests.

The first test was alphanumeric (letters and numbers) pick 3 with my Dad. I completely failed.

The second test was number-only pick 3 with my dad::: again I completely failed.

I then said a prayer to God regarding telepathy and tried again with my Mom, on a number-only pick 3 test:::

I put down 4 numbers and she put down 3, but one of my numbers was right. Not really very impressive, but ~1/3.

The next test is the reason why I'm posting this post though: I did one more number-only pick 3 with my dad.

I said: 9 4 2.

He said: 9 7 2.

2/3.

Yay. Maybe God decided to let me have some ability again after my prayer, or maybe I just got really lucky --- but I calculate the odds of getting 2/3 in the right order to be:::

0.9% chance, or ~1:111 odds.


In grade 12, when my brain broke down, I didn't do very well in statistics, but to me this does look like the right answer. It makes sense in my mind that this is a reasonable statistic.

So, I did 4 tests, 3 of them failed horribly, but the last one I beat the odds. Yay.


UPDATE  4:13PM::::

So, I just did one more, the fifth, telepathy test today with my Dad, Number-only pick 3.

I said: 4 2 6

He said: 4 0 6


So: that's two 2/3 tests in a row, both with odds of 0.9% happening each. Twice in one day, two in five tests, at such low odds. Cool.

I guess I got a bit of my ability back.

Friday, November 7, 2014

Saw an Old Friend

So a couple days ago I met up again with someone I once knew from school. This is the first time in a long time that I really had a close personal contact with someone I knew.

Living a very lonely life, I'm afraid that I might've seemed a bit self-centred in the discussion. Talking about what I knew and thought, and of course freaking him out with how crazy I am. OK - he didn't seem freaked out - but my life is so crazy you'd think he should be freaked out.

I told him why I don't go to school. My brain has a way of turning "off". It's kind of like I'm haunted by some supernatural force in my head or something ---- I told him how I've been reading the bible and I'm able to read that book just fine, without any thinking difficulty.

But when I try to read a novel --- as has happened quite a bit in the past little while --- my brain turns off and I am unable to concentrate on the literary work I was trying to enjoy.

Like, for days before he met me I was having this thing where I could read the bible fine, but my brain turned off when trying to read a novel.

I was at a shopping mall this evening, and as I sat in the mall waiting for my mom to finish shopping in one store, I figured I could try reading an ebook on my phone ---- but nope, brain just turned off.

Anyway --- I am pretty much psychologically or intellectually disabled. I've seen and experienced so much crazy stuff in my life -- and then I find it hard to concentrate on something I want to do, so yes - I am pretty much disabled.

But I also think I've proven God's existence. Though on one hand it's clear I can't function as I once did, it's also clear that there is some kind of greater and even magical force out there.

Anyway, Jesus said that many who are first shall be last and the last shall be first. I am a perfect example of this.

Throughout my schooling leading up to grade 11, I knew I was pretty much top of the class, I did pretty darned good at pretty much anything I did. 98% chem final exam in grade 11 was the last time I could be glorified for my intellectual talent --- and yes -- that was the top mark in the class.

I was first, and then I became last, because in Grade 12 my brain shut down and things I found easy to do in grade 11 became pretty much or near impossible.

Anyway -- the story continues, I met a friend the other night:::

The friend reminded me of our grade 10 science class together. Most memorable moment I was involved in::: I was right near the big explosion in that class. He remembered it, and so did I. One of those real memorable things from High School that it was just nice to know I had met someone else who also who also experienced it with me.

Anyway, this evening on the way to the mall, my brain actually did start working again and I remembered the chemistry equation that caused the explosion. First time in a long time I did any chem.

Sodium reacts with Water to produce Sodium Hydroxide and Hydrogen.

Hydrogen reacts with Oxygen in the air to create Water and a big explosion that left sodium hydroxide spattered all over my arm, as apparently my old friend from school remembered, which part of the story I do not remember personally. I mean -- I supposedly got sodium hydroxide all over my arm and he remembers this but I don't. I just remember sodium hydroxide getting all over the roof above the explosion.

Anyway. yeah. Nice to spend a bit of an evening playing OUYA games with an old classmate.

I almost wonder if people might look up to me too much with how I was the top of the class for so long growing up --- because I am not the brightest crayon in the box anymore.

I am considered intelligent by those around me, and I even see that my family has a certain intelligence about it ----- but though we have some level of intelligence, we also have some level of disability and thinking problems.

And that's just life I guess.

I just feel maybe people expect more out of me than I'm probably capable of providing.

Anyway - yeah -- nice to have some time to meet up with an old classmate. Yay.

Monday, November 3, 2014

Parable of the Finches

I remember a few General Conferences ago (while I still paid attention) that Boyd K Packer gave a talk, and in his talk he told a story, which may be considered a sort of parable, about Finches and a snake.

I thought it was so cool, because I understood his "parable" to have direct relevance to my life.

There was a time when I totally loved the Mormon/LDS church. After experiencing all kinds of problems with that organization, I don't feel I can operate in it anymore.

I can verify and will never deny the miraculous nature of the LDS church --- I KNOW they have some kind of magic about them ----- they may actually be from God, for all I know, and maybe all that stuff about church history was false accusations ----- but because of my personal issues with the church I find it easier just to accept that the church is the devil.

This morning I was talking to God about my purpose in life, what I'm supposed to be doing.

Turns out I'm on vacation, I'm on holiday.

In my book and on my website I don't think I have publicly discussed one of the big issues that just happens to negate whatever effort I may have ever tried to make to serve God. I don't think I did anything wrong, but there is a big reason why I have nothing to do anymore. And it's kind of sad.

Anyway, the LDS church, whether it be of God or the Devil, really is magical/miraculous, as far as I know or have experienced.

I just find it easier to accept that it's the Devil's church because of the serious problems I've experienced with those people.

But I keep it in mind about just how cool it was to be essentially mentioned in parable format in General Conference. As near as I could tell ---- what Boyd K Packer said had everything to do with me, and I find it to be a pleasant memory.