Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Hatred is a Disease

I am a pretty bad sufferer from mental illness. Part of my mental illness, whether it be just in my own brain or an emotional sensation caused by my spiritual surroundings, is that sometimes I feel or sense a feeling of hatred in my heart, even sometimes an extreme hatred.

I've learned that my medication is likely a good way of not acting on those feelings, hopefully something will keep me away from those feelings, because what those feelings represent really is not a good thing.

Of course, my life fits the bill of Luke 14:26 pretty well, on multiple occasions this scripture has become true for me, it reads:

"If any man come unto me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple."

How could Jesus say such a thing? If hatred is such a disease, then why would Jesus want to make disciples of hateful people?

Well, from my personal experience, growing up in the Mormon church you are supposed to do the best you can to be a good person and do the right thing. If your family totally follows mormonism/is devout, yet you know they aren't trying their hardest to be right and true, and when you realize that there's actually something completely wrong with the people you live with, well, you actually will start to hate your life and the people around you. I know, I've been through it.

The great thing about Jesus is that as his disciple, a hateful man, you will learn to love one another, God is love, so once you realize how utterly pathetic you and your family are, Jesus can come in and teach you properly. You HAVE to be humble. You have to become as a little child, capable of learning new things.

Pride and thinking you know everything and never thinking you could be wrong isn't really what Jesus was going for.

So yeah --- I am a sufferer from a serious psychological disease that will even cause me great feelings of hatred even for no reason whatsoever. For a long time now, when I get those feelings I know to not act out on them, I know how to stay calm and reasonable and let the feelings flow off me like 'the water off a duck's back'.

Love is a really good thing.

And yes --- life might become so bad for you that you can't help but hate your life and the people around you --- that's when you need Jesus, that's when Jesus will come. He'll lift you right up and make things better.

And now, I say this in the most loving way I can, because I don't want to hurt or offend, and I'm not angry anymore, I just see the pure logic of the things I know.

Though I don't care for LDS Mormonism, but a number of my family member still follow that path, I do not hate them. But, I do think they themselves must also suffer from some kind of disease or mental issue as well - even if it's not diagnosed.

Basically, I said hatred is a disease right?  Well, after learning all sorts of things about the mormon church, this might sound wrong but now I realize that mormonism is also a disease.

For people who don't know, who are being enticed or seduced by the LDS church, well, the church will just try to make a guy like me seem "anti" and tell you not to listen to me.

But --- for the same reasons the psychiatric doctors told me I was schizophrenic (because I totally believed in Mormonism), I now also know that Mormonism is just a disease. Joseph smith was actually a heretic/lunatic.

I could go on for ever and ever on this topic, but my dad hates discussing it with me, and I need to keep this post shorter than it would be if I went on a complete in-depth discussion.

I'll just leave you with two thoughts:

1) 2nd Nephi 25:16 says when countries treat Jews badly, they're actually doing God's will. But then LDS people through misunderstanding or misinterpretation don't understand this reality about their book. My own family has this problem.

2) Mormon 4:5 says the wicked punish the wicked, while D&C 64 says we are require to forgive all men. To keep this brief, I will leave you with the idea that both these scriptures come from the LDS God, yet they completely contradict each other. One scripture says 'don't punish anything' while the other scripture says 'wicked people are ok by God to punish others'. Not only are these two scriptures contradictory, but they also completely contradict or pervert actual christianity as well.

So --- hatred is a disease, that I might suffer from a bit though I'm keeping it under control, and mormonism is a disease that can spread like wildfire, and well, my family suffers from it.

I have an idea that this blog post may be seen as extremely controversial - but Jesus (who is Love) is the answer and as near as I can tell Mormonism can't be understood to be true in any complete form once you've completely studied their doctrine/history or theology or what have you.

Yes, it's unfortunate, but that's how I see it.

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