OK --- I have a couple stories on this blog about a mac pro in my bedroom that glows for a while and then suddenly, without warning, stops glowing.
I try to explain to myself that there's an explanation for that but I never figured it out - for some reason - until now. It seems so paranormal, but it might not be.
OK - I leave my bedroom door open. Across from my bedroom door is another part of the basement,where there's a light that switches on with a motion detector. After there's no movement for a while, the light switches off.
That light is probably what I see on my Mac Pro. It's just a bright light from another part of my basement, reflecting off the Mac Pro, and then turns itself off - thus the sudden end of the glow in the Pro.
I hope nobody got too excited about what I saw there, and I feel sad it took me so long to figure out that explanation. :)
So:: if I need a woman to be my companion, parter or help-mate, I have some looking around to do.
To me, right now, the thought of finding a woman seems dismal enough that I feel like I just might miss out on an adventure. It's just that I am really-out-of-practise meeting girls and I genuinely think I would need a female companion.
The feeling from God that made me "want" the job has calmed down considerably, but as I talked to God last night I got an impression that He thought this would be a good thing for me to do.
I just have to note however, that I get stressed out too easily historically, so in my mind it seems like there's a possibility that this is like that one message from Elder Jeffery R Holland where God seemed to instruct him to take the wrong path. I don't know how that works, but it seems possible. What I'm saying is ---- it would be sad if I had all these feelings, we got everything together to do it, and then it didn't work out ---- but Elder Jeffery R Holland seemed to think that's a possibility.
Basically::: The feelings God gave me of wanting to do this have calmed down significantly. I still feel brave enough to try, but I think I also have other things to concentrate on right now.