Looking back on my life, I'm realizing that losing "Annie Liability"'s friendship is probably one of the best things that could have happened for me.
OK - it's true that I still see Annie Liability as a seriously awesome person, and it hurt like hell to lose her friendship --- but now that I know what her family was like, it's better that we aren't together.
In fact, I needed self-improvement too --- and though I lost my mind and no longer think or work at the level I had once been able to --- I think I'm a better person for having gone through these experiences.
If there's anything so flawed about me now - it's just that I can't forget what happened on so many occasions. People keep telling me I shouldn't think about it, and I'm wishing I could forget, I wish I could move on.
Yes yes, losing her friendship and having the experience I had --- though it was very difficult, was actually a good experience.
That sounds like a pro-mormon thing, but another thing I learned from the experience is that the LDS church can't really be trusted.
Here I am, I feel the holy ghost warm my innards as I think and talk about the untruths of the LDS church.
There is some possibility of a truth or reality to them --- but there is just so much wrong with them that I'm not going to be their man anymore.
Now --- Pray for me that I'll be able to move on with my life. I need to move on. It's no good having my brain stuck in the past.