I was bemoaning the fact that I can't be saved in mormonism because I can't go to the temple due to my imperfections.
But then I realized: I am saved anyways, as long as I be a good boy for the rest of my life, even despite my addiction.
My justification is this:
In mormonism, it is by Christ's grace that you are saved, after all that you can do.
To keep it short, I did everything I could do, it wasn't enough, and now I just rely on christ's grace. I am already saved according to both Mormon and regular Christian tradition. My bases are covered.
For a bit lengthier description:
I offered my whole life to God in exchange for exaltation. The church rejected me. My whole life wasn't enough of an offer, and I was automatically shut down, with no options left. So, I did everything I could do, because the church wouldn't even allow my deal to come to fruition. I offered so much, it was rejected, there's nothing more I can do, and that is enough.
I could also mention how the church got rid of me by accusing me of something, technically damning me, but then they never told me what the accusation was so I have no way of repenting of it, because I don't know what I did.
So, basically, I've done everything I could do - on one hand it seems like I've been prematurely damned even though i tried so hard, but on the other hand I did everything I could do, and Christ's grace is all that's left --- all I can do now is be a good boy for the rest of my life.
Technically, I could do more because the Stake President once invited me to prepare to become an elder, but also technically the church is so screwed up in my sight that I wouldn't want to go back as well as I am just too addicted to be allowed in the temple, so that's a no go, and I hope I am still saved anyway.