OK, so it's been a few days since I flipped from swearing about the LDS church to being totally positive about them and wanting to return.
The desire to return may have been an entirely irrational feeling that I just had for no real idea why.
Anyway, so how do I feel now? I still hope I can forgive the mormons, I don't want to be filled with negative feelings, but my enthusiasm about them has died down considerably.
It doesn't take much thought to realize that there are serious flaws about the LDS church, however well intentioned they may be.
1) If I'm supposed to be the Lord's lifetime servant, a travelling preacher to the nations, then why on earth wasn't I allowed to be Annie's friend or Avril's friend? I mean, I'm supposed to be some great teacher, but I'm not allowed to be friends with the two girls who seemed friendliest to me. Doesn't make sense.
2) Does God really damn Coffee-drinkers to hell? You might think God's scourging of the Jews is bad, but just the simple restriction on Coffee could be seen as totally fascist. I mean, coffee is actually a healthy drink according to science, and the Mormons won't let you go to the temple and accuse you of breaking covenants if you drink it. I mean, is God really such a dick that he won't save you from hell just because of Coffee??? Seems kind of ridiculous.
3) Just a few minutes ago I got an email from BYUtv about a famous mormon person --- Alex Boyé. He's a singer whose life was transformed by song and things turned out alright for him. Again, my life was being transformed by song in a positive way, but the Bishop decided to do the opposite of how the songs were trying to help me. Doesn't make sense. Maybe I'm a little jealous of Alex Boyé, with how he was such widespread popularity among mormons, while I have some similarity with him yet I was restricted from even being friends or listening to Avril's music. The church chose Alex Boyé to be popular, not me, even though I'm supposed to be the Lord's lifetime servant.
OK ---- so there are so many reasons why Mormonism isn't really all that great and I am not likely to return.
I still think there are GOOD things about mormonism, but for me, personally, in my life, it probably just doesn't work.
So, I want to be positive and forgive the mormons, but it's not hard to remind me of things like the three simple facts above and all of the sudden I can't be bothered with them anymore.