Saturday, November 23, 2013

Suspicious Activity

I just got out of the Walmart on country hills blvd

After visiting the mcdonalds a bit before 5:20pm, I visited the men's washroom at the front of the store.

I don't want to be accusatory, but I was a little suspicious about what that bald white older male was doing in the restroom stall with the young Asian girl.

I don't know who they were but seeing as their ethnicities were different and one was a little girl, I am a little suspicious.

I don't know what to do about it besides mention it in my blog.

The man was bald and white, almost or about as tall as myself (I'm six feet)

Friday, November 22, 2013

Obama scraps nukes on same day I release my game?

The Inter-Continental Brink of Madness IS OUT NOW!! Only for OUYA

So, to compete with XBOX ONE on release day, I have released my newest latest OUYA game --- "The Inter-Continental Brink of Madness".

It's a 2-4 player strategy board-like game that takes place in a not-too-distant future planet Earth. You control a nation. You can engage in diplomacy, trade, building and attack other nations with conventional and nuclear warfare.

So - yeah, this is my and OUYA's XBOX ONE competition on release day. Hahaha. I'm so special now: taking Microsoft on head on. Hahaha. :)

It's the 526th game on OUYA.

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

On Mormonism and Homosexuality

I've been reviewing information from ex- or anti-LDS sources, and one thing that keeps popping up about some of these ex-LDS people is some support or alliance with the homosexual community.

I suppose the LDS position on homosexuality might seem harsh, or bigoted, and probably has some similarities with how I felt about being an LDS who masturbates----

but I also recently found out about a guy named Swedenborg who lived over a hundred years before Joseph Smith. Swedenborg apparently met Jesus Christ too, and wrote books about his revelations. From what I've learned, Swedenborg says that there is actually marriage or marrying in the Celestial kingdom, even after the death of this life, and that you need marriage in order to attain the highest level.

Considering the fact that I have some notion of a reality to the LDS church, and that Swedenborg seems to have respect from mormons and non-mormons alike, I suppose the LDS position against gay marriage may seem harsh, but it's actually the LDS way of trying to love Homosexuals to find salvation/exaltation.

I mean, the bible says Homosexual behaviour is wrong.

Mormons, from their own perspective, actually seem to be showing love to homosexuals, trying to offer chances of exaltation in proper marriage in the next life, rather than letting homosexuals screwing up their eternities forever in this life with gay marriage.

Whether or not the LDS church is true is not the issue here ---- how Swedenborg relates to the issue, however, may have some influence on the LDS position and that's why they are the way they are. Swedenborg is likely truthy, or true, as I'm reading another book of a Near Death Experience from a woman who wasn't LDS who learned some things about the three heavens as well (therefore Swedenborg can't be ignored, even if the LDS church is heavily flawed).

Anyway, I know what it's like to be constantly put down about a sexual imperfection, I know what it's like to not be able to marry because of a sexual imperfection.

But if I, or any homosexual, manages this life in a way pleasing to Jesus Christ, for the lovin' sake of our eternal welfare and "exaltation", I suppose the church just wants us to not fornicate or gay-marry so we'll have a chance at marriage and the highest level of exaltation in the celestial kingdom.

I am a disaffected Mormon, and though I often find myself leaning towards the regular christians rather than being a part of my mormon beginnings, I still have a testimony of some kind of reality to the magic of the LDS church, which sometimes I think might've been satanism, but to tell the truth I can't really judge.


In videogame news, I did some more beta testing, found a few bugs, and have fixed them. I'm going to try to keep beta testing until I can get all the way through a few games without finding any bugs, and after that, tweaking the game so it's well-balanced, then I plan on publishing this new title.

Monday, November 18, 2013

A Valid Reason She Dumped Me

In The Book of Finch and Letters to Whomever I talk about how heartbroken I was to lose my good friend, Annie Liability. She dumped me, and I had no idea how to explain it.

In LTW, I postulate that there really may have been a valid reason why she dumped me, assuming it may have been because of my masturbation "problem".

But, regular society doesn't view masturbation as a problem, and even views it as an escape valve from other problems like fornication and worse.

But, even if masturbation is not a problem---- Annie may still have had valid reason to dump me.

When I was friends with her, a lot of my email with her centred on the LDS church, on The Book of Mormon and other scriptures, almost as if she and I were scripture study buddies.

Her parents didn't like our relationship, her father said he was concerned about my discussion of the religion. I viewed this as ground to try and have him excommunicated.

Well, it turns out that church history, church doctrine and LDS scriptures are all very concerning actually, these things are so concerning that this WOULD be considered a valid reason to dump me.

And excommunicating them might not work either, because if they are actually telling the truth about how concerning mormonism is. It would be a nightmare to excommunicate someone for telling the truth.

The only problem is, I suppose you could say their explanation of concern over the church would have explained it and it would be a valid reason ----- the problem is I had been brainwashed all my life to always understand or believe that Mormonism is the unerring truth, and no one for many years explained to me quite WHY mormonism was a concerning religion.

How said is that? That the LDS church actually tries to hide the truth - that they can't just be straightforward about the history and the problems?

It makes the LDS church seem very dishonest, and I totally understand why someone would be grumpy or angry for having wasted their lives with that sort of thing.

So yeah, I suppose Annie Liability dumped me for a valid reason, which her father explained, but did not compute in my mind because of how brainwashed I was.

And the part Avril Lavigne had to play in my life was VERY helpful, although the way it helped is not the way it appeared that it would help. Wow.


As for my video game, I got an alpha build a few days ago, I've fixed some bugs, I've installed in-app-purchasing, and everything seems to be the way it should be.

Of course, to find out if everything is as it should be, I'm going to need beta testers (closed beta), in order to make sure the game works and is well balanced.

If I ever thought I didn't need to beta test, well, it is evident that beta test is needed because of some of the hidden bugs I found when playing with the game by myself.

And it's so good to have those fixed.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

New Version of Pfhonge submitted for approval

OK, so version 1.3.2 of Pfhonge had some really bad programming issues in it, and I have addressed these in the next update, which is currently called version 1.3.3.

HOPEFULLY it will all be fixed! Yay!

Monday, November 11, 2013

Some Thoughts on LDS Hypocrisy

I just logged in to my account, checking status reports, hoping to write a little something about some thoughts I had, when I noticed I had unusually higher amounts of visitations earlier today. It looks like someone tweeted my website, although I am unsure who tweeted it. Thanks for caring.

I came online because I felt like sharing a little story about some of the hypocrisy of the LDS church or members.

At the beginning of Letters to Whomever I share an email I received from someone who contacted me who wished to remain anonymous, but after doing a little research I was able to discover that this individual was an old Teacher's quorum advisor or leader I once had in the LDS church.

It is so sad that he would hide his identity, being LDS and being dishonest about who he is, but perhaps he hid his identity because of how hypocritical the things he was saying were.

The writer, my old Teacher's quorum advisor, was telling me that I was wrong to claim to have a connection with God because of my masturbation. He went on to tell me that he wanted me to seek emotional medicinal help, likely referring to psychiatry (especially as only psychiatrists can give medications for severe psychological or emotional needs). The idea that he is telling me to see a psychiatrist is confirmed by his way of telling me I'm delusional.

Well, he says I'm delusional, he says I can't be with God because I masturbate, and he says I need a psychiatrist.

The situation I am presented with here is of someone who is themselves heavily deluded about what a psychiatrist would teach.

He tells me I am bad to masturbate.  A psychiatrist would actually teach that masturbation is normal and healthy in guys my age, and there need not be any shame about it.

He's shaming me about masturbation, and then telling me I need a psychiatrist. I wonder what he thought he meant by that. He's shaming me into seeing a psychiatrist so I can know there was never a need for shame in the first place.

He says I need emotional help, but then says I am only imagining my personal connections with Avril Lavigne.

Let's get a few things straight here: 1) Avril Lavigne is helping me emotionally. 2) How can he judge the nature of my relationship with Avril Lavigne when he decidedly didn't bother to read my book?

So, he's telling me I'm only imagining a connection with Avril Lavigne, and then tells me I need emotional help. Well, in all likelihood Avril Lavigne was the emotional help I was supposed to receive.

My teacher's quorum advisor just wasn't very smart I guess.


If you are looking at my blog for news about my upcoming video game, I am happy to report that yesterday and today I worked on it a bunch, and I'm making progress. Still not finished though. Of course, also be aware that putting in a few hours two days in a row is more work than I normally do on this project, so please understand if it still takes a while. Who knows? maybe we'll get lucky and I'll feel like working on it all week. We'll see.

But even if I "finish" the game, I'm still going to want to test the game on my family, or whatever few friends I have, if I can, which I might not be able to do for a while anyway.

So, I worked on my game a bunch, still have more work to do, and I think you probably shouldn't expect it for at least another month, if not, two months. Unless I get really lucky and put my shoulder to the wheel and all that, unless that happens, the earliest you can expect the game would be in January of 2014. At the earliest, but I make no promises.

It's done when it's done.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Not Much Important to Say

I notice that there are a few people who seem to like to check-up on my blog, and I haven't said anything for a few days, so here's my latest, though somewhat unimportant news:

1) yesterday I did more work on my 2nd video game. My brain probably still doesn't work too well, as I had to get myself to concentrate really hard to successfully get my game to do what I wanted to do. I wasn't the smartest programmer for a lot of yesterday.

2) With all my ambivalence about LDS mormonism, with all the confusion about the goods and bads of it, I have figured out a solution in how to deal with it::: I just won't judge them. They have good things, they have bad things, but I will not judge them. I'll let God judge them. It seems to be a good strategy. I'm going to live my own life, and for many reasons I consider them to be unliveable, so I won't go back, but as for judgement about the quality of their organization, I won't judge. I'll let God judge. This would have been a good ending for Letters to Whomever, if only I had thought of it. :)